I'm getting a little
shaky from all the comments.
Why are there people out there telling me i'm so faithful, i'm so over in love, so naive and dumb.
I mean, i may sound very one sided love in my previous post. It sounds so much that i'm only the one loving him, but not on his point. But, how do i even stop loving? How do i even stop remembering him when i want to forget him? It's not that i'm giving up now.
But as long as there's love, there's hope.I have this very weird belief in myself which idk if you guys do have it. I wont let go of whom i love even though he's kinda irrelunctantly to get together with me in a relationship or showing how he meant to be (be it friends or love). I dont know, because people have feelings don't they? After all, it's more than 2 yrs relationship. So much things that you can't compile and write them all out in a single day and night. That's how
naive i am that i can even tell myself it's not one sided. ( But i really don't know if i am)
Eventually, one day i have to let it go when things ain't working out anymore. In every ways i try to salvage and revive these moments or memories,
it doesn't mean happily ever after.
And yes, previous post sounded like i'm fuck dumb to think like that. But i think i believe in my intuition that we still have that mutual feelings between us :) Asking me why am i like that and why haven't i found a new guy? Because he's all i can ask for. I'm
tooooooo tooooo toooo so much used with him that it became a habit, my life and everything that plays a part with him in my life.
He may fuck behind my back (
speechless), flirt behind my back or even in front (
worst)! He may even be dating some girls which i may not know, already fall out of love and no more feelings with me. He may even have an eye candy and not wanting me anymore. He can even leave anytime as and when he likes because we have no strings attached.
THAT'S the insecurity you get from a no status relationship. That's the shit you will be thinking sometimes and wondering are you the only one making the effort. It's been more than 6mnths or more since i hear that 3 words caming from his mouth. Or did the last 2yrs+ relationship did he even say it from his mouth but only text? I dont know man, i'm confused and really feeling insecure now. From the way you talk now, it seems so different 7 days ago (
exact).
I can miss him so much even when he's beside me.
What's wrong with me now?
suck and fml.
