I know, i often says that my family was never nice. But i'm seriously cntented with whoever i am living now. My lovely young grandparents whom watch me since i was born. Nevertheless my aunt too. My both sister and my cousin and my mom (:
i tot i was a good kid, but my dad had never fought for my custody. I wonder when i was a kid ! Why isnt he loving me as much as i do before ? Everyone says love do fade. Yes, i've experienced it before. But does love fade for a daddy who made me here right now ?
All i can say was, my love do fade for him. We always had a weekend outing on sunday mostly ( due to some personal reasons which are not revealable), we would head for sakae sushi as our lovely lunch as he knew it's my all time favourite. He wouldnt mind spending 50-100 bucks for that meal ! Just to see his two lovely daughters and one more somewhere.
But who knows, time change. Love change. Direction change. I can never get back to the time as i was 4 yrs old, when i was 8 yrs old or even just a few months ago.
Because i always say in my heart, since you dont even ask and even care bout me in the first place, dont bother asking bout anything further more than that. And that explains why all the foul mood came from when asking bout my studies from "you" guys.
such a long post, idk where i'm driving to or even who i'm upseting for or why am i writing this. Tired of thinking of these thoughts over and over again.