ROXANNE (;

Monday, April 28, 2008

different problems that im facing everyday.
somtimes i thought it will make me a stronger person.
however, i felt that im breaking down.

bits by bits,
pieces to pieces.
from love to hatred.
from peace to war.
from family to strangers.

it do freak out,
leaving to canada ?
haha, never a joke,
he's pending for her reply (:

processing. :D
tata !

writtern @10:35 PM

Sunday, April 27, 2008

it was horrible.
its freaky,
its scary.
i don wanna stay here
this place just,
freak me out in everyways.

doom's here.
i've got so numb,
i thought i'll be better.
only for awhile,
im sick of it.
sick.
real sick.

pls pray that,

i'll be better soon,

real soon pls ):

writtern @7:40 PM

Friday, April 25, 2008

how bout a round of applause ?!

5A won the class cheer,
5A won the 4X100m B boys relay, got a gold !
5A won the class flag design,
that was the coolest shit, i didnt take pic,
shuld get it from someone and post it. its shitty hawt nice (:

what disappoint was,
4X100m B girls relay.
marini's leg pain, me ? leg so weak. -.-
and ya, lost, got so lousy la can ?
lane 3, i tort can get 3rd, tsktsk ! -.-

after everything,
we had class photo at the middle of the track,
then we had this flyer thingy,
my base to excited ?
then they just land me, without me holding anyone yet ?
lolsss !
sprain the side of my ankle,
that part i sprain alot of time alr man -.-
now i cant find the bandage ): sobs.

i think i have a long body man !
seee ? they are taller than me, but, still.
hehh (:

the art.

ok,
before everything.
hehh (:
anyway, this is a boring post,
the cheer, i post next post ?
its kinda blrry though. )):
but, ITS NICEEE !
hehh (:

writtern @7:25 PM

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

_[Chorus]_
Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on

_[Chorus]_
And don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

And the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to melets here your speech ohh
How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

_[Chorus]_
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now

i think my doom's coming near,
in less than 24hrs,
and where i started dragging my feet home,
slping outside with lights on,
looking out of the window
and learning how to be stronger,
every day and night.

i definitely miss my bf,
havent been meeting him for ages.
due to cheer pract ):
and of course, tuition.
and his last yr in sch,
having loads of projects and etc.
busy bitch. hahh.
ily.

(:

writtern @10:52 PM

Monday, April 21, 2008

oh man,
i thought there's no one cuter than jesslyn.
in fact, there is.
before i show you how does she looks like,
make a guess. how can anyone be cuter than that lil girl of mine, staying in this hs that ransack everything. -.-

she got a more chubby cheek ? =/
she got a beautiful nice look sexy seductive eyes. (:
definitely, better than mine in ANY WAYS,
or even MANY ways. or even EVERY WAYS -.-
she have 4 upper teeth,
while jesslyn had it full alr ): cause she's 4 yrs old ?
and she only have 2 lower teeth. yet to grown. hehh.
come to age, she's only 2. bahh ! =/

she might have the same hairstyle with jesslyn,
but still ! she looks cuter =/
her hair are much easier to tie ?
she tie hair looks much diff when she let go. awww

anyway,
i hope to have this lil girl as my baby. hahah !
can i have her pls ?

she's no other than,
marini's lil girl ! hahah !
named lil nadia :D

thats all folks !

im tired ):

long dayyyyyy. )):

i sprained my muscles anyway,

ouch !

i always crave for food every night ! tskk !

macspicy,

spicy noodles,

tom yam maggie + alot alot of chilli (:

if not chicken rice with alot of chilli too ?

if not, anything thats spicy.

or soft drinks that suits my mood.

titbits that make me smile.

small bites of choco that makes my heart feel lighten ?

or mayb,

my bf that could crack a joke or some.

to make the end of my day, filled with smile. hah (:

so tireddd.

sighh,

goodnight ! =P

writtern @10:08 PM

Sunday, April 20, 2008

i feel so disgusted by everyone now. idk how, but yea. everyone is making me think that they are disgusting, just why im so disgusted by them ? you dont know how i feel and you just make ur plands, and go ahead with it ?

you, making your son a room in this house.
makes me think that, your even more disgusting than i can ever think of, i swear.
you're driving me and sis out of hs ? lols.
i think ur mind is sick.
1 room for grandparents.
1 room for you and ur daughter.
1 room for your son.
my mom ? my sis ? i don care bout me man.
what is this bout ?
you got ur own condo,
and you coming back here, seriously makes me sicks.
you make my everyday, deaddddd.
conflicts + unhappiness + mood spoils + mood swings.
enough bout you.
im gona find my own place,
either dad hs, or live TP.
and i don care bout travelling time, ima do that if u make me mad (:

and you you you !
another freaking disgusting woman know !
wtfff ?
your lies, your uglyness.
your whatever-ness just disgust me in EVERY WAYYY !
i swear man !
EEEEW !
you definitely have that naive thinking,
dont you ? hehh (:

reaching home late everynight,
seriously worn me out.
im dead beat.
and accepting all these lies,
all these dumb shits at home.
make me feel more,
weak.
i seriously hate facing the world.

and now !
all i wanna do is to just study.
and if she move back next week.
im sorry if i cant post ?
or unable to chat with you guys online.
beep me thru cell bah (:
i'm pretty tired quarreling over computer,
over studies, over outing and over everything.
sighh.

and why is life,
always like that ?
im sick of it.
very.

writtern @10:27 PM

Monday, April 14, 2008

miss my post ? hmmm (:
wanna take a journey to my life ?
hahh, here's smth bout my past :D
hope you guys appreciate what im gona do.
and at the end of the day,
say nth, do nth, think nth, but love this post (:
and rmb, there's always someone in yr family,
still love you the best (:

would anyone share me their family's life ?
because im very interested in ppl's lifestyle,
especially, when it involves your dad and mom.
its been long since i took pic with my dad / mom,
or even, with both of them.

so here's one pic of me and my dad ?
if im not wrong,
i should be around 1 yr old, or even less ? lols !
this looks funny, and i look super chubby.
i didnt know i had a pic with my dad,
till grandma told me so ? and ask me to see the album.
fortunately, i've only got one album,
which is more or less my pics with mummy and daddy.

i've once asked my mom,
how come i dont have baby pics when im with you or daddy.
and here, i've found, finally after my 16+ yrs ?
hahh, because now i can hardly take pics with them in such a lovely atmosphere.
or even, chatting with them without conflicts ?
its been ages i can say ? hahh (:

embraced by my dad ?
cute enuf too see that i look dumb in my dad's arm.
i didnt know i was that chubby. .__.

i have no idea what my mom was doing,
and i miss that smelly thing of mine im carrying ?
lols ! i love those lil cute things i wore before.
tskk ! where is it now ?!?! hurhur!

hello ! would you like to take pic of me ?
posing some "sexy" ugly pics ?

rawwrrrrs (:

scratch my butt,
scratch my back,
scratch my head.
itchyy ):

hurhur ! come to swimming !
so when's my last last time dad or mom bring me ?
lols ! guess im old enuf to go myself la ? ha (:

oohhh, happy lil cheerful girl.
seee ! i never lie ! :D

bahaha ! there you go again,
sexyyyy =/

this is over -.-
unglammmmmm =SSS

hurhur,
and last but not least,
my one and only family pic.
haha ! (:
without my sis of course cause she wasnt in my mom's tummy yet ? not yet ? hahh
ohwell,
idk when's the family pic after this ?
i've got no idea,
and i don wanna know when's the last,
before i got so, yea.
cheerful and smile,
posting pics again. lols
(:

thats all folks,
remember,
dont think that there's no family,
there's no home.
don drag your feet home no matter what happen.
if there's family problems,
face it bravely (:
and if you feel so dead going home,
put on a smile,
and get along with the one they love you (:

if roxy can do it,
why not you ?

(:

writtern @4:46 PM

Sunday, April 13, 2008

fuggggg,
so bored,
and i just turned down one shoot
) :

and i think,
its so wrong la ?
but for the sake of the later part,
i think its better than i have a second thought,
then getting a lousy name at the last end.
hmmm, you know what im talking bout?
its alrighty !

fucking boredddd laaaaa ):
UGHHHH!

):

can i have macspicy puh-leaseeeee

writtern @10:20 PM

Saturday, April 12, 2008

you wouldnt wanna know,
how this lil girl does this shit.
but yea, you have to know.
she does this shit well.
very well .__.

i think my sis teacher her how to use ?

i was bout to post my pics,

and blog bout my stuffs actually.

but when i wanna upload photos,

i saw these photos and my 1st reaction was

OHMYGAWDDDD

this lil girl knows too much.

she knows how to press hp's number ?

she memorises my grandma's number well ?!

she know how to use camera ?

searching it in my hp menu ?!

darn her, she damn scary now ?

or is it that, i long time didnt see her.

suddenly see she grow up,

was so shocking. lols.

went to fetch her from classes.

she asshole, so bstard.

tell teacher "idk both of them"

idk idk, then started her drama class -.-

assshole.

wanna kick her la ?

she know the way home, she know whats this and that.

darn, kids nowadays.

are like, cleverer than me ?!

or even, others ? and blabla ?

i wanna have kids.

and now,

make me have second thoughts. lols

cuteeee

writtern @12:50 AM

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

damn tired, i guess ?
quarreled with mom last night.
unable to blog bout it,
something personal,
and i wrote it all down in my private diary.
i think its quite dumb ?
i got 2 diary,
one's online,
one's hand written. lols.

today,
someone beheaded my lovely greeny teddybear ):
idk how it drops off,
i found it near the door of my dad's car,
and im like. ohmygawdddd.
who murdered you ? -.-
and now, i left with bodyless teddy ):
tskkk !
bad sign ? hmmm.

im super duper uber tired,

i don wana think whats gona happen tmr.

hopefully its a great day ahead.

sry for short post, super super tired.

do chem hw halfway, and mind couldnt think of anything.

eyes closing, and mind's shutting.

nights peeeps,

night sweets,

nights friends.

writtern @11:12 PM

Sunday, April 06, 2008

you wouldnt wanna talk to a jinx.

i've never revealed how much i've hide inside, and now i told you. idk how to stop the curse, but yea, its in me. and i know your mind will be either end it up, or continue moving. it must be real hard on you and tiring for you when everything's turning upside down. i wouldnt wanna know that my life's that way too, till now. i've realise how hard life could go. its been hard for you to reach here with me when there's so many obstacles coming along our way.

anyway,
here to apologise,
for all the problems i've occured to everyone.
and here to say goodbye.

(:

writtern @9:28 AM

Saturday, April 05, 2008

hahh. i think you just used vulgarities on me.

[c=67][c=51]╰*

=) t* sent 4/4/2008 10:40 PM:

fuck you roxanne....

you said i dont have enough qulity to own the best stuDet award...

u though who u r

[c=67][c=51]╰*

=) t* sent 4/4/2008 10:41 PM:

u though u have wat qulitification to say so ..

to be a human ... dont be so busybody

it is none of ur business ...

cheer u fuck lar...

[c=67][c=51]╰*

=) t* sent 4/4/2008 10:44 PM:

ya i dont like cheer .. so wat ... nobody can force me to do the thIngs i dont like ...

if u really so free . go and study larr.. lousy result still Dare to say other ppl ... fuck u

[c=67][c=51]╰*

=) t* sent 4/4/2008 10:46 PM:

if u really Dare to say so ... say to me face to face lar don alway say other ppl at the back..

[c=67][c=51]╰*

=) t* sent 4/5/2008 12:11 AM:

i wouldn't quarrel with u any more .. at school i just want to study .. i dont want anytHing to mess up my study life just like that .... tHis tHIng is all over dont bring it up any more it is enough really.. it doesnt seem any good for both of us

[c=67][c=51]╰*

=) t* sent 4/5/2008 12:15 AM:

more friends are better than enemy ... i heard my friend say so

nights everyone :D

people say when you gain smth, you lose smth. and yea, i did gain and lose smth. oh well ? lols, is this life ? definitely, its pretty obvious it is. thanks uh huaping. i rmb ur words :D i love your eff-ing word :D

writtern @12:52 AM

Thursday, April 03, 2008

aww, i canceled my tuition today.
was feeling super unwell after my macspicy with nini.
okay, we were laughing all the way when we're eating.
esp that dumb ass, -.-
she keep saying this look like shit,
and wanna mixed it.
and when i hit her hand,
there comes new shit, this time round cooler !
its the watery type of shit. lols !
somemore, its seriously brown in colour, tskk !
disgusting fella. -.-

today boey got menses i think.
thats why teach class till halfway attitude.
i think she dont like her student go toilet -.-
i always tahan till cant walk to toilet -.-
then the whole class will started laughing.

reached home,
my baby cousin sleep till damn soundly,
then i went to lie beside her,
she asshole. so excited then suddenly talk to me.
i say slp back, she say,
i thinking smth. (looking outside the window)
walaoo -.- straight away wake up the mind working alr ._.

then when she woke up,
i found out that mom took pic from webcam is nice !
and so so, when i just started to on,
intend to take pic with this lil kid.
my mom stomps at the back,
and started squeezing us to fit inside the pic -.-
sounds stupid, but still,
ITS DAMN FUN CAN ! HAHH ! =/
we took alot man,
cause jesslyn just keep clicking and clicking -.-

everyone wanna take pics with me ?
awww, roxy rocks your world aint it ?

me and my mom were doing faces.
and she just keep copying whatever i do -.-
then i say, okay, stop.
i don wan take alr.
after that went to lie on the bed straight away,
cause she say she want me to kiss her ? -.-

i just pooom on the bed and she there lying behind my back la ?
i was so omg, cannot even breathe, become roti prata ._.
then sis ask her to smile,
then say, wah, no dimple, not nice.
mom there go bite me ?!? beat me ?! pinch me ?
wtffffff. then say u smile suppose to have dimple,
becomes wrinkle -.- THEN SHE GO THERE JUMPING ON MY ASSS
wth, i tell you, i was seriously dying.
but i was laughing till breathless actually. LOL
worse of it,
she can even come and bite my asss.
i think my ass looks yummy :D hehh.
its damn pain k, i think you'll think my mom's crazy.
indeed, she is. hahaha !

and i didnt know that there's ppl viewing me.
haha, secretly..
shhhhh (:

my bf's missing in action ):

writtern @9:46 PM

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

wooots ! since everyone is posting bout cheer,
why not me man ! hehh (:

1st of all, to the dumbest girl in the world,
which is me, apologise for kp-ing teacher for getting best student award for the term,
which i think its super reasonable for me to voice out,
because she aint participating in much event,
she doesnt have the leadership in ANYTHING.
and she doesnt speak up, except,
she got A1 for almost all her subject,
and if thats the case, i guess,
she gets the best student award for the whole 5 yr la -.-

if you guys think that,
in sch, its ALL bout studies, and just studies,
nth else BUT just only studies.
then i think i'll feel super sry for you ):
you lost out fun, you lost out laughter,
and you lost out communication with friends.

if you think that sch are just teaching bout subjects,
what bout CDP, CIP, and whatever other courses thats given in sch ?
sch's values ? like working with others ?
they are none of your business too ? lols.
if you're another girl who's talking bout going cheer,
its TOTALLY dumb -.- then be it lor ?
you run can le la ? i've told teacher,
telling her last min cant work things out, so ?
why u say bout us ?
doing things thats dumb outside sch ?
movies, shopping ? acting like some bitch ?

bout ur msn nick dudettes,
to see us cheering,
dont make you vomit pls. it doesnt.
and you by calling us idiot, aint u calling yourself idiot too?
look who's talking now.
and though i dont have the right,
i was there scolding to ask for cooperation,
thats what a leader should do when handling the class.
whats more, i was handling the cheer,
that you shuld expect ?!?! no ?!

hate them not so clever still do those stupid thin not related to study, think they pro , NO MAN! u are juz shit.. '

you calling us shit ?
are u talking to the mirror ? haha,
cheering aint stupid stuffs.
im here to tell you that cheering rocks more than your smelly socks,
rocks more than how much u study in sch,
rocks how much more friends u made in sch.
and rocks much more cooler than you wondering outside schs.
in your so very sloopy appearance makes me feel like puking more -.-
not only do we cheer, we study too pls -.-

just simply brainless talking bout this
-.-
nights !

GO 5A go 5a go 5a!
went into the finals,
and im super duper PROUD OF IT :D

writtern @11:17 PM

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

happy april fool day !

i wrote in every paper i receive today in sch.
date : 01.04.08
much love,
roxy :D

im still standing strong,
im gona be alright no matter what.
so if im down,
just see me eat macspicy.
that will cheer me up loads
and i mean,
loadsss

(:

writtern @11:46 PM