ROXANNE (;

Sunday, December 30, 2007

you see me ? cause i saw u :D

TAKE OFF UR CLOTHESS. actually i was buttoning up -.-! and BIMBOS did the shot : D

writtern @10:35 PM

sighhh. sighhhh. start with a bad day.
mom did nth, and i do all by myself. -.-!
no confidence actually, but turn out well (:
then i needa wear fake eyelashes, mom helped.
BUT SHE SUCKS LA. didnt do properly ):
in the end, when the shoots starting, junying help me :D
thanks pretty (: your some hawt babe. lols.
all of us started 2 mnths ago too.
they are 19, and im 16 -.-!
liu (photographer) told me that other photographers gave positive feedback.
omggg,i go jumping and laughing at far east.
no doubts, I REALLY DID THAT (: that's crazyyyy.
and im having next shoots soon too. hehhh
today shoots was damn fun.
nice, and i feel totally comfortable.
those photographers are seriously crappy.
they're cute and funny, they may look old, but they are professional.
shawn told me that i look confidence.
oh yea, i think i did pretty well too :D
im satisfiedddd. hehh xP
i did alot of poses. urm, i cant get those photos la ): so sad. sighh
and i learn alot of new things too (:
they like the way i do the S shape and shove my hair. LOLSS
oh well, THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
and esp yaozong :D for teaching me everything b4 shoots (:
i would love to have another photoshoot soon (: see ya soon ! (:

after that met sarah wah wah wah, my little thangggg
went shopping alil, then devi and nini (:
we became A GREAT CLIQUE AFTERALL :D
laughing madly, SERIOUSLY. you'll never know what we're chatting
FREAKING DIRTY AND FUNNY.
and it make all of our day happy (:
shop the WHOLE FAR EAST. omggg
sarah and i had cramp after the last level. lolss.
and we bounce back to wdl centre to play poool :D
we were the noiset shit over there,i swear !
those dirty things came out again la. those stunts tooo.
and i was wearing a mini skirt, i cant imagine i lose control of myself.
I LAUGH TILL I FALL =/ JUST, EVERYTHING u cant expect. lolsss

AND ONE MORE UNGLAM SHIT !
when i was shooting, THE WIND WAS FREAKING WINDDDYYYYYY
and my skirt just *poooof* -.-!!!!!!!
yea, yea. THATTT ! i know, you know. SO KEEP QUIET !
photographers didnt do anithing la.
they even teach me to pose so that i can hold my skirt down.
i don feel awkward too. lolsss ! no idea why.
and they even tort i wear a shorts inside.
and they told me, I SEE NTH. LOLSS ! :D
conclusion : I HAD FREAKING FUN TODAY LOADS LOADS :D
hehhh, thanks for everything sweets and photographers.

i forget to say smth !
went to bugis buy bag :D
now the 4 of us had same shoes, wearing same uni, and carrying the same bag. HAH !
then went to paragon find my smelly gf : D
we were so crazyyy. happy and jumping.
ok, bout tml. idk whether can countdown or not.
anione coming my hs acc. me ):
i wanna get out of this hs.
moreover mom's KPPPP ! ): sighhh
she's being unreasonable. mayb, i can depend on my own
lolsss ! madness. ):

AHHH ! aniway, i'll never forget this day (:
I JUST SIMPLY LOVE TODAY (:
thank God for everything (:
good night panda (: which is me -.-!

writtern @10:21 PM

Thursday, December 27, 2007

whenever i got moody, all i think was only you ):

and my sweetest gf never fails to stand beside me.

writtern @9:50 PM

sighh, english was ok, but hw was seriously bad.
a word given, and i have to give 400 words of essay.
HUHS ?! -.-! i hardly write anithing that contain 300
and another 100 words more, where to find ?
anihow pop out and bomb ?! -.-! sighh ):

tml MT, more worse, sure buy snacks and soda to slack.
listen songs and emo alone. if not, slp with eyes wide ):
grandma keep nagging bout my size la.
keep asking me to stop eating, cause my tummy growing.
.__. i can stop eating ! then next visit see u at hospital, ppl : D

idk why i so moody today,
im extremely moodless today.
went ktv with shawn and sarah
zhihao came later.
i left at 6.20. i want somemoree pls ):
new yr's here, sch's starting,
sighhh, my tuition everyday laaa ):
im like, so pessismistic now.
feeling alil beyond consolation.
im hopeless, im dumb, im stupid.
im just nothing.
_l_
sighhhhh )):

writtern @9:19 PM

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

imitation of airpork. RIGHT SMELLY GF ! haha =/

she love licking my hair, and that makes me high. WOO !

writtern @10:53 PM

buy me slping pills.
buy me slimming pills.
buy me some pills that will make me perfect.
HAH ! im so crazy over my body now.
u know why ?!
cause im gorging foood down my throat ):
every tuition, i started buying sweet drinks and snacks ):
PLUM JIUCE, STARFRUIT, SPRITE.. blabla.
CHIPSTER, GUMMIES, CORNTOS... blabla
SIGHHH. what to do ? I CAN EVEN HAVE SUPPER

WOAHH ! -.-! let me die laaa. i don wanna have aneroxic either.
HAH ! life's so bitchy. "pai mia"(hokkien) means hard life. lols,
sighh. so bored with this life.
aunt's spying me when and what time i have tuition
she happy luh, have to let her see the timetable. u sucks la.
having tuition seriously everyday ): haisss.
monday - chemistry
tuesday - maths
wednesday - physics
thursday - english
friday - MT
sat - geog / ss
sunday - POA
BOOKING SLOT OCCUPIED.
till nov of 2008 (:

too bad, no more lan.
no more supper
no more to town.
no more to movie.
no more to shopping.
NO MORE NO MORE TO EVERYTHING.
and YES MORE TO MUGGING FOR Os.
IF I GET SERIOUSLY SICK cause of everyday like that
im so gona __ u upside down. =/
OIE ! my life la. ji dan
tied me down. how i go for shoots ?
__ you la. if u don let me go, i seriously seriously will
will will. whatever it is. NOTHING GOOD GONA HAPPEN : D hehh (:

ps// aggressive -.-! but ! i was burning. =]

im bored at home ):

writtern @10:36 PM

imagine me without you (:

lock those memories, and leave with a smile : D

writtern @1:34 PM

OMG ! this is dumb.
MERRY XMAS TO ALLL ! D;
oh oh ! stayed home during xmas eve.
but naughtying around amk during xmas. HAH !
met up jh, zhao, little thang and smelly : D
we had dota. HEHH ! the girls owned the man can ?!
omggosh. =PP we're pro DAWGGG ! : S
then head for movie, but boma left ):
national treasure was niceeeey : D
2hrs do make my butt hurt, but its worth it =PP

suppose to reach home at 10pm.
but 11.30 instead. =/
informed no one, and im getting rebellious.
MY BADD ! but afterall, its the show fault =/ HEH !
went sarah's hs after supper at home.
then slpt there and now im back home (:
going for tuition later on. OMG ! -.-! ya. omg -.-!
new yr's coming ! LETS HAVE A NEW START BEBEH ! D;
i think im gona get grounded.
but who cares la ! sch's starting.
i left 5 more days for mugging to death
SO WHY SHULD I BOTHER !
im still in a HAPPY MOOOD ! its like, you cant spoil it. NEHHH ! =P
another yr had gone,
i just reach 16 -.-! and my friends gona be 17. THANKS UHHH !
so unfair. why did mom have sex when its new yr
sighhh. HAHA ! so random. sry ):

i was damn happy i went out with smelly.
haha, cause we never fails to camwhore though.
bought eyeliner. TADAHH ! =/
i left with blusher to buy. hurhur. howhow.
INTRO ANIONE ?!
and then head for some branded bag.
im having shoots on sunday. omg omg -.-!
with hawt babes la can !
and 16 photographers -.-! omg ):
ratio is 4 photographers to 1 model.
im dead ..... *speechless*
haha, but no worries la. its gona be my 1st experience : D
money coming in ! =/ $_$
more money plsss ! HAH ! =/
tata, ppl. prepare for tuition (:

meet up sooooon funny ppl (:

writtern @1:25 PM

Monday, December 24, 2007

when can you find me ? or will you run away ? (:

writtern @2:23 PM

idk how to react.
idk what to do, you cant teach me either.
i tried so hard, but you never know.
i did so much, and u never cared.
i hide so much, and u never find.
i learn so much, yet u find it little.
all i did was nothing.

idk whats wrong with me.
neither do i know what im doing.
i don even know who's roxanne
and what does roxanne normally do.
what does she likes and love to have
what she wanted so much and yet, she know it aint gona happen.
hah, foolish u see !
bottom line : WHO'S ROXANNE ?!

i may be good in some ways, and bad in any ways.
surface : im pretty nice.
but deep down : im empty.
i don wish to be ur everything,
because im not your only one.
i feel like, im nothing..
i only have a name, a pair of eyes, and everything complete.
but i left my heart somewhere. i lost it somehow.

And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end

how do i unlock this chain ?
to try a better one.
to look on a brighter side.
and smile put on my face (:

its getting dull ..
dull....

writtern @1:58 PM

Sunday, December 23, 2007

And I will take you in my arms

And hold you right where you belong (:

writtern @10:17 PM

Ooh, ooh

When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that’s around you
Are secrets and lies
I’ll be your strength
I’ll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it’s gone
The one you should call
Was standing here all along

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
‘Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I’ve loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
(Give you my heart)
This is a battle we’ve won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun

Just close your eyes each lovin’ day
(Each lovin’, each lovin’ day)
And know this feeling won’t go away
(No)
‘Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I fall
(Over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn’t be living at all

And I will take you in my arms
(I will take you in my arms)
And hold you right where you belong
(Right where you belong)
‘Til the day my life is through
This I promise you, baby

Just close your eyes each lovin’ day
(Each lovin’ day)
And know this feeling won’t go away
(No)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you

sry, cant find a complete song in imeem. so i just copied the lyrics (:

writtern @10:16 PM

i saw it in my graduation day CD. lols. and i couldnt open my e-mag ): saddddd. how ? )):

writtern @7:41 PM

HURHURRRR ! shoots postpone to next sat : D
im not mentally prepared yet though. =/ HAH ! but what can i do ?
hardly models get to be featured, AND HERE I AM ! HAH !

i need sch shoes, new bags for me to bring to sch : D
and it MUST be able to contain 10 books. : D
small books though. HAHAHA ! =/
dying my hair black ): aint that sad though,
just that i NEED to. lols
if possible, i would love to trim my hair : D hehh.

xmas is in 2 days time.
i dont like xmas actually. because bad things befalls on me.
therefore, i never celebrate on that day.
to prevent anithing from happening.
STAY HOME : D
unless, someone date me out. HEHH ! =P
and pls assure that nothing goes wrong.
if not, grumpy will be me for that day (: aww

OHH OHH ! since everyone wishing for pressie.
WHY NOT ME ?!?! hehh.
a puppy for me pls ! if possible, a schnauzer. hehh.
the cutest shit on earth. OMGG ! =/
if u cant grant my 1st wish.
grant my 2nd wish then : D
a puma side bag for the day : D
if u still cant grant my 2nd wish, then be it 3rd.
urm urm, mayb mayb, HIGH HEEELLS : D
if NO again ! be it 4th lor ):
GIVE ME A SURPISE THEN !
if still cant ! be it 5th.
JUST GIVE ME A PECK ! THANKSSS
and i know, all of u cant do the 1st 4.
hahaha ! so choose the 5th one right ? LOLSS ! =P

went tuition for today. ):
i know once im in there, im tied down. sighhh
uncle will plan FULLY EVERYDAY for me to turn up there. hah.
he never fails to do that. NEVERRRR. .__.
i say i sat might be hard. idk how to tell him if i have shoots.
cause things will turn out damn messy if im still doing that.
he says cannot have ani event and prgrammes -.-!
say im lacking behind. which is like wth -.-! tsktsk.
CHILL LA. im still having holiday moood )):
keep going out everyday, what u expect ? lols !
and if there is shooot, pls give me some ideas for excuses : D thank u (:

oh ! and damn funny, jonathan gona buy me smth from disneyland
his plane today : D he bid farewell. hehh !
oh oh, i damn slpy. so i wasnt aware of what im texting -.-! hah !

IM DEAD BORED HOME TODAY
AS WELL AS TML
GRANDMA SAY " TML CANNOT GO OUT ! MUST AT HOME EAT TURKEY"
rox : HUH ! -.-!!!!! .____.

merry xmas ((:

writtern @7:21 PM

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

hit back to sch times : D

writtern @5:13 PM

*ahemmm*
here presents roxxxyyyyy N level results : D
5pointsssss. *CLAPSSSSS*
thank u thank u.
*roxy on the stage holding her slip*
roxy : 1st of all, i would love to say thanks to my uncle
who is my tuition teacher. he pushed me. and he taught me alot of things.
in life, in studies, and in everything.
he taught me for about 7 yrs : D
thats when our bonding gets together. lols !
u must be thinking why i aint thanking my parents.
because i aint any actor/ress or singer. lols ! =/

though they give tuition fees, they are never looking at some ways.
its like, im having unlimited lesson for 300 bucks per mnth
yet ! they still think its too much. -.-!
ppl giving 260 PER MNTH. BUT ! they tuition twice a mnth.
lols, u'll never know how im stuck in the middle.
they are never satisfied with my results too ):
if i say i got 80/100.
dad will say try get 90 next time. 80 aint that good. -.-! sighh
bout mom, she more hopeless.
she only HMMM. ok. )): thanks uh !
though parents no money to give tuition fees.
uncle never fail to give me moral support and keep telling me to just go tuition
he never fails to let me disappoint on my studies, hereby to thank him !
he went thru with me in PSLE, now N lvl. next O lvl.
OR MAYB A LEVEL ! who knows ?!?! HAHAH ! =/
i do tell him family problems too, he give me advice and guidance.

once a girl who got 20/100 for maths and sci.
and now, not a girl, not yet a woman. got 75 and above.
but sadly, an A2 for N lvl to both subs.
due to hardworking everyday doing POA,
i got A1 (: was pretty happy.
because, the girl once failed 9/30 in EVERY test.
and i mean every test.
now ? haha. becomes 25and above / 30.
see ! if u work hard enuf, and study smart.
u'll never predict what the future of ur results will be (:
though im dumb in pri sch, went to NA stream,
that doesnt mean that u guys can look down on.
its just that, we aint that smart compared to express.
they can even retain after taking the Os.
whats the rush ? be slow and steady : D

after so much talking,
im quite sad bout knowing some of my friends aint up to standard
to even come back to sec5 (:
my play mates, my laughter friends, my fun peeps,
and not forgetting, our memories in class (:
we'll still meet up right, APNN ! hahaha ! : D
congratz to devi too ! (: the laughter girl get back to sec 5. haha
oh oh ! and sis coming to my sch. haha !
so if u see her, pls don ask her that are u Roxanne's sis.
cause its pretty obvious to be asked. : D

I LOVE MY BOMA. but no worries. i aint lesbian.
just that, she's too much for me to be treasured. lols !
just couldnt imagine, life without her is no laughter.
haha ! our dirty thoughts will never stop us from being disgusted
and our gossips are meant for fun.

FYI : I THRASHED MY ENEMY CAN ?! U GOT OWNED, U SUCKER ! haha !

ps : i aint demure. so, expect the unexpected.

went rouge last night. songs and crowd was ok.
drunken man to take care of.
fights were stopped.
friends made (:
saw howard. kns ! wear red skinnies, scare car bang u ar ! LOL!
he also got into fight outside toilet
and i was there too. and i pulled him away too. lols !
i think i needa go gym train my muscles liao.
go in club with guys, needa push them away from getting fights. hah !

i cant wait for my pics ):
where's my photographers ar ?! hahah !
good bye people.
mug hard for O lvl this sunday liao
((:

writtern @4:41 PM

replies to taggies :

NINI : thanks sweetie, ((:

sherri : thanks pretty : D

boma : U WILL SHY ONE MEH ?! lolsss ! smelly gf. hahaha.

shan : hey ! thanks for ur blessing (:

yanxiu : hello girl : D and thanks for wishing me. i did quite well though. lols (: love ya too (:

susan : aye, heard u went to america (: no worries, malaysia gang and us will miss u k (: thanks for ur wishes too (:

haniz : i promoteddd tooo ! WOOOTS ! CONGRATZZZZ ! HAHAHA ! : D

writtern @2:16 PM

Monday, December 17, 2007

my smellist friend in my life. without her, hahhh. idk what am i now ((:

writtern @12:38 PM

thanks waikit for bday treat last night !
and thanks my babe boma, sarah thang, and gf sinying to be there last night !
we met up after dinner : DD
we had FUNNNN =/ ok, ppl were looking at us.
IN A WEIRD WAY ! thats not goood uh !
then 12am, wishessssss startsss : D
boma was the 1st. OMG ! thats why i love her so much can ?
LOLSSS ! never fails to stop loving her. chehhh.
smelly gf. LOLL =PP
then my little dumbest peeps waiting outside my doorstep.
they must be lighting those candles. LOL !
they started singing when i opened the door.
and know smth ? whenever ppl sing for me that song,
i'll cry no matter what. I DO TEARRRR. =///
so don sing for me k. hahaha !

except except for that dumb oie. HAH !
he sing zoo bday song for me. make me laugh till i pengz can ?!?
hahaha. : DD thanks laaaa uh !

later, i think they got some K session
or POOL session in town.
meeting ppl for pressie in town too.
urm urm, my donuts too.
and, IDK ! till now, i only seen one of my family members.
which is grandma -.-!
i love her to the max can ! she give me red packet.
not much though, but she's the 1st to smile at me when i woke up
the one who started screaming b4 i woke up.
the one who gossips bout me b4 i slp.
the one who laugh at my jokes
the one who congratz me and gets happy when i pass my exams.
AND SHE'S JUST MORE THAN A GRANDMA !
she's my mom, my friend, my everything, my love.
ok, grandma, U ROCKS MY SOCKSSSSSS : D hah.

thanks babes and hunks for wishing me (:

HAPPY BIRD DAY ROXYYYYY ! (:

*yawns*

TML TAKE RESULT LA !
@#$#%^%&^ ! *TOOOOT*
1.30pm )): who's gona wait outside my sch gate ?
*tremblessssss* bring more tissue kkkkk ((:

writtern @12:29 PM

Sunday, December 16, 2007

writtern @12:44 PM

It was so easy that night,
Should have been strong, yeah I lied,
Nobody gets me like you,
Couldn't keep hold of you then,
How could I know what you meant,
There was nothing to compare to

I know everything changes,
All the cities and faces,
But I know how I feel about you,
There's a mountain between us,
But there's one thing im sure of,
That I know how I feel about you

out later, with my little thang and waikit KORKOR.
hah, long long long time no meet him luh ):
our last meeting was sentosa YEARS ago -.- !
with UNCLES,COUSIN,FRIENDSSSS. : D
he grown older, i've grown matured.
HAH ! rightttt. never will i be matured pls ! ):
catching golden compass later.
heard it was nice. so he booked for us. hehhhh : D
HE PAID EVERYTHING for tonight.
not bad, a guy i lose contact for pretty longggggg.
and now, we're meeting up again.
to celebrate my bday ? lolssss.
and im getting belated present on 18th too ):

oh oh oh ! adam came to daddy's place last night 1am.
pass me a small pressie (:
a musical thingy, then he say, if no one celebrate with me.
hope that lil pressie do some help. HAH ! : D
thankssssssssssssssssss (:
just sry for anithing that i caused u to be upset.
u might not be the one for me, cause i just dont have the feeling
i know you're leaving me sooner or later.
but its alright (: we'll still be friends.
i know im just not good enuf to be urs.
indeed, you're a great guy i've seen ((:
take care my friend.

stupid photograpger, now my lil thang have shoots !
pang seh my movie with me. sobs ):
u better come early after ur shoooots !
i don care i don care. lols !
update next time. see ya prettyssss (:

writtern @12:29 PM

pretty lady (:

my sexy lady (:

writtern @1:01 AM

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

All that it takes one more chance,
Don't let our last kiss be our last,
Give me tonight and I'll show you
I know everything changes,
I don't care where it takes us,
'Cus I know how I feel about you

went shopping with dad,his wife and sis.
far east (: hehhh. time to give dad heart attack =/
bought 2 cardigens, 1 top (somehow looks like clubbing)
and one shorts. NICEEEEEE.
and know what ? freak thattttttt.
only shop for 1 and half hr, -.-!
then, only walked HALF side of the basement one.
omggg ! then waikit say jia lat, if walk whole orchard, die alr.
nvm, im paris hilton sister : DD no worries. HAHHH ! =P
i want shoes(heels), accessories, dress, urm urm, whats more ?
AHH ! handbag, DKNY (undies and bras) HAHH ! =S
more more more ? hehhh =PPP
i bought white and yellow cardigens.
know why ? cause photographers told me that i look nicer in both colour. nye-haha !

whats more ? he said i look slimmer in some ways !
KNOW WHY ?! because no more supper
THANKS TO GRANDMA LOR !
she cook supper when im in the room using comp.
never ask me hungry not ):
and reminded me to eat lunch and dinner.
cause she know i'll forget.
no wonder no more gastric pain uh. lols ! : D

im sorry that i betrayed ur trust,
im sorry that i spoiled ur day,
im sorry that i spoiled ur mood
and im sorry that i spoiled ur everything.
if we're meant to be, we will be.
if we ever know that we'll be tgt,
no matter how long, i'll wait.

i may be too young for you,
may be too little for u to be with.
may be too dumb to even shut the fuck up.
and may be too silly to even trust me
all i have was no sense of security,
and if u were to give me that sense, do u think we'll be the way we are now?
we never work things out tgt,
we might not share everything we wanted to.
we never had this sense of being close to even share everything the way we suppose to.

im lost, but i think
somehow, i'll be walkin thru the rain alone.

will you ?
shelter me the rain, and walk with me thru the late night ?
you'll never know what happen during the next min of your life.
never (:

writtern @11:39 PM

Friday, December 14, 2007

whats more ? ( :

writtern @10:59 PM

be it trust, be it love, be it everything.
somehow, i'll let it go.
sooner or later.
im feeling weird.
i want you, but i hate u.
i dont want u, but i love you.
u might not make me go crazy over you.
but im feeling smth.
just that smth bothers me.
and when it bothers me, i go so soft.
i wanna die it in a hard way.
make me fall, fall as bad as i can.
that will do much loads of help ):

ily

writtern @10:55 PM

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

you're a bitch : DD

writtern @9:41 AM

BAHHH ! u must be thinking, why i'm ignoring you.
thats all because, when u hated me, u blurted all your things out.
and when its over.
u apologise. cant you be more of a man ?
alil gentleman i can ask for ?
urm, or mayb think twice b4 u throw everything out from ur heart.
OR you can stop giving excuses saying that ur straightforward ?
since you know apology cant be mended to what you've done.
why did u still do so ? save that lil pride for yourself.
why make this thingy end like this ?
its not that i aint treating you as a friend in any ways.
but your just making me feel like im a toy to you
i aint ur toy boy. im a human.
i do have feelings, you too. and till now, you shuld now what i mean (:

my mom's a bitch aniway,
aint gona elaborate.
but ya la, she brought those boots, heels, clothes and dresses for my today):
MY BADDDD. ):

sighhh.
why does ppl always lose their things and then they know that,
those are the one they loves, and meant to be treasure.
by the time we know, its just too late for us to change.
whats more ? we never learn.
after a mistake, even till the 2nd or 3rd mistake and more.
you'll still never learn to appreciate.
and you'll never learn to treasure.
what gotta do with me,
its just all ur presumption.
tryna make me give up ? hah.
the more u do that, the more i rebel.
and now, i think your a bad guy.
a guy i can hardly trust and love as much as i can.
life's a bitch, you know ? ((:
without this bitch, how to live on ?
you might be the colours of my painting to this life,
but your one of the colours that turns to grey, somehow. (:

writtern @9:25 AM

Monday, December 10, 2007

UGLY UGLY ! NO NO NO ! lols. *NEXT PLS * BOOOO !

writtern @2:44 AM

to what u've said boy, there's nth u can control bout it.
and to what i've said to you before, its useless now.
if this is what u've decided to do. then be it.
why bother bout my life when u started the quarrel ?
i don think its a quarrel, its some simply so call " not-chatting-atm"
this is dumb to me la, hello ?
i mean. im pretty fine with it.
u may call me that as all you want.
spam me with ur non-sensical words and things that u think its okay.
i'll still carry on with my life even though u've left.

yes u can hate me. because the choice is for u to made.
duhh ! u can don chat with me. because its ur life.
i can be tolerant, to a certain extent.
tell me who doesnt ? if he/she does to you, yes. she/he is a hypocrite. LOLS
if i were to say, i can do better off without you. that's dumb.
because we were once friend.
and if i were to say, it makes no changes if its the way we are now than the past.
its MORE dumb. because its pretty obvious, it is.
but ! somehow. its not. just that.
i'll only have one less conversation to chat with in msn.
a 100 sms less to text with.
to be mean, you dont mean anything to me.
though u can be a great friend, but ur so whatever.
to make u come to ur senses, i may be over-friendly towards you.
and that makes u think ima flirt. OH YAY !
ima flirt. and i'll take that seriously.
yes im serious, hello. i am !

missing dance pract the 3rd time -.-
and i've decided to do smth thats what meant for me.
to my instinct, i think its right.
all i have to do is to be determine. DETERMINEEE : D
PERSERVERE TOO. lols ! i sounds so like woodlanders.
BUT NO ! SHOOO. go away u smelly sch. hah ! =P

its pretty early now. 2.45am
i think i wanna dota later : DD
TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN !
i don wanna be a nooob man. trash someone. so gona own u
OWNED THE COMPPPP ! MUAHAHAHHA =P

RANDOM:
my supper meet is cancel ):
cant get out of hs. grandma say NOOO ! LOLS !
my thang (sarah) and i are fantasizing our mee tai mat.
lols ! with chilli loads loads. hawt soup and delicious fatty mee : D
IM HUNGRYYYYYY ):

FYI :
I NEED CLUBBING WEAR CLOTHES ! (:
ANYONE SPARE OR HELP ME ASK AROUND ?
IF NOT, i wont have animore pics to upload for u guys
c'mon pretty (: BE NICE HEREEE. HAH ! =p

writtern @1:57 AM

Sunday, December 09, 2007

i think i look alil taller from reality. lols. and, THIS IS UGLYYY ):

writtern @1:45 AM

sighhhh. not a fruitful trip afterall -.-
lets talk bout last night. (: as usual, same clique, same things.
same thoughts, same fun. :D
Mac breakfast, mahjong, and DOTAAA !
1st time with sarah and me. One on One. its damn coool and funny.
Hit-And-Run is our forte :D because we love HAM AND CHEEESEEEE :D
hor hor hor sarah ? lolsss ! of course there'll be slping beauties.

after everything, me and sarah left to the other room with air conditioned.
lying on the bed, and we started chatting. our little dirty secrets. muahaha
in the room at 7am+. but we slpt at almost 9am -.-
we were woken up by noises and cousin.
cause i gtg out laaaa. dumb dad. but somehow, i got smth
had alil fun at shenton way looking at the stone merlion watering. -.-

somehow, flings could be an entertainment.
but ur flings are getting on my nerves.
they are pretty fine, pretty good with me.
and idk why i have to entertain those shits u've got.
they are somehow kinda despo to ur "whatever" because i aint interested.
and u keep asking me to see and comment.
what can i say ? its ur opinion. and ur hooking up every person u see in facebook
hooking up may sounds bad. but ur worse off than flirting with them.
u do show alil respect to urself, but its far from what i expected.
since they are being dirty, why didnt u bother to ignore them ?
ur just bringing ur self-esteem lower
BAHHH ! WHATEVERR !
ignorance is a bliss. BLISSSSS !
18 dec results. ))))))))))))): sigggghhhhhh

writtern @1:19 AM

Friday, December 07, 2007

writtern @11:13 PM

AHHHH ! this smelly ass ask me to blog -.-
ok, HAPPY BIRDDAY SMELLY XAVIER (cousin)
his the only cousin who was with me WHEN I WAS BORN !
and we bathed tgt b4 =/
because he wanted so ?! and im less than a yr. LOLSS !
i still have that pic. and its damn cute cute cute !

ok, ytd. i didnt went for anithing.
shop with my pretty gfs : D my beloved sarah and boma (:
i wanna perm my eyelashes as boma trimmed hers ):
BUT BUT ! aunty object. lols. she say she did it b4.
and it didnt work out lor. but it look pretty fine on that lady
oh well, fake eyelashes will do then.
and i had a last min meet up with photographer : DD
amk hub lorrssss. then then, chatted 1hr+++++++
my batt went low actually. lols ! and its 10pm ++++
i got 1/3 of my photos. and its like, ONLY 1/100 pics processed-.-
urm, i feel alil unprofessional bout their thingy or smth.
somehow, he tell me he gona email photograghers.
to private shoot me. and gona have another portfolio for me on 12th dec
and featuring me on 22th dec ? scheduled PACKKK -.-

hopefulyyyyy ! it turn out well.
and there's smth me and sarah been talking bout when we're on train.
DUMBBBB. lols ! "MOTIVE" so called.
ok, nvm. WAHHHHH !
happy birdday xav.
GOOODNIGHTSSSSSSSS BIRDSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
=))))))

writtern @10:57 PM

Thursday, December 06, 2007

writtern @1:59 AM

ahhh. the funniest BBQ i ever had.
but lets forget bout the past. its alright.
didnt had dance pract too. and i know it aint gona go well.
its kinda my instinctions. but i just keep saying "NO"

tml, gona go for some job interview.
SALES ASSISTANT. lols. ok, sounds dumb. BUT NO !
ima get my job experience. mwahaha :D
but that dumb agency say the boss quite stict #$#$%^
haven start work and interview, she started crapping.
heading down to town tml. and PEEPS !
this weather may be to ur favour.
but it do makes u fall sick.
so pls ! do take extra care for yourself.
cause i know, I WONT BE THERE FOR YOU.
nye-hahahaha ! =P
kinda tired, but. I MISS MY COMP.

just whenever i tort of you;

you'll never be there.

but out of nowhere, u'll appear again

its a surprise, but not to my liking.

is either to forget, or still be.

and i know,it just wouldnt change (:

writtern @1:49 AM

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

bear with this dumb pic. because im tryna upload my hp pics to comp. it just cant work. .__. sry

writtern @12:03 PM

HEYY ! im backk :DD
because the dumb comp's repaired.
and pics gone. .__. EXCEPT SONGS !
idk how my cousin do, but yea, smart ass indeed. LOLS
i found my comp so new, yet old.
cause its kinda freaking laggy. sigghhhhhhh.
ok, nvm. i've got plans later : DD
hswork, dance pract, then BBQ at potong pasir. .__.
thats far from woodlands laaa. ):
but im HONOURED to be invited. LOLS !
so, who cares bout being far ? LOLS ! =P

i couldnt install my dumb pic to my comp.
UGHH ! getting irritated. oh well, lols.
pffts.
and bout that model thingy, im kinda disappointed. -.-
i don seems to get anywhere, but.
i don think i seems to care now.
because, I THINK nothing matters now : D
take care peeeeeps ((:

writtern @11:50 AM