ROXANNE (;

Sunday, January 25, 2009

HI PPL ! IM AT GENTING NOW ! (:

AM using the lappy. hapving wireless internet for free.
super apologies.
i didnt know why i cant get online with that damn msn.
it piss me off. been waitinf or 20mins alr k ! gosh !
but i can use the net and reply emails and blog alil, its damn good alr.
haha ! no need money to pay for lan shop weets.

anyway, im alone !
oh ya ! in 2 hrs time or more its CNY.
sorry for not being with my loves out there in SG.
I'll be back real soon oright ! (:
in addition, i'll go each and everyone's of my friend's house to bai nian !
to replenish my lot for the irst two days of CNY
as the first two days is my biggest collection man ! ):
sobs.

oops !
im seriously having loads of fun here (:
and i might be gg to theme park tmr !
but the arcarde here sucks big time now. pfts ):
great time spend with family too.

and most of all, HAPPY OX CNY TO U GUYS!
HAVE FUN !

PS : I MISS MY BF ! ;DDDDD

writtern @9:43 PM

Friday, January 23, 2009

People do have their own natural reactions when they got shocked right ?
so when some idiots suddenly came shouting at ur ear,
you'll give one of ur natural reactions.
without even going thru ur mind should u say this or not,
or do things like slapping that person or punch it.
SO this bloody fucker idiot,
she came to shout and my ear and i just scold a foul word.
and she's there nagging and gave me some scoldings.

EXCUSE ME ?!
if you do ur own things, i dont bother you and vice versa,
would this happen ? you got nothing better to do,
go find urself some work and look for jobs.
asking me for money every day and night.
used my phone in the middle of the night and laughing,

EXCUSE ME?!
DONT I HAVE TO SLP ?!
for god damn ske.
its been for a week i didnt have a good slp k !
because of you, i kept waking up and shifting place to slp k.
because im so disgusted bout ur doings.

eeew.

and you ! if u wished to lie to me, go ahead.
if u think its right, u wana do this, go ahead.
if u dont need me, dont need time to be tgt, go ahead too.
if u do not know how to balance ur bf time and friend's time.
or even family's time too.
get some life, bitch.
you'll never succeed.
im done here.

Fortunately, im gg overseas during CNY,
leaving these idiots here.
goodbye and have a good celebration with ur family and friends.
this yr, im so not gona go out more.
because i didnt shopped for CNY clothes at all. sheesh ! -.-!

writtern @1:35 PM

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

I'm disgusted for ur doings.
being an elder,
you didnt set an example,
u did nothing either.
Nothing, and just nothing.

And i wouldnt know what might happen next.
My future's gone. My time is up.
Everything had fade, and it came back once upon.
I'm scared.

i felt that im all alone.

My relationship is back for worse.

im tired. but i know it'll be better.

i cant change, i cant do anything.

i felt helpless,

i wana cry, but i wanna be strong.

I dont want to make a wrong move, and regret.

writtern @11:13 PM

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Feel guilty of not putting pics and updating.
SO, yup. here it is (:
is was a tiring day for me that day.

and i only bought one top for CNY.
pathetic. )):

is either i dono how to choose,
or my expectation of clothes nowadays are high.
oh mannn ):

i look sickkk ! horribly sick -.-!

so we were viewing the pics in the car,

and suddenly,

it came this

------

TADAHHHHH ! MY MARINI ! ;DDDD

Jesslyn suddenly laugh at it la ? haha !

find her funny. lmao !

she rmb her ! weeets. (:

COME MY HS FOR CNY !

might have lion dance ! weeets !

XOXO;

writtern @11:38 PM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

REPLIES TO TAGGIES :

- : urm, that i know. but i obviously state that my english is E8 (: thanks for ur concern (:

bun : don give up babe! (: it's gona be okay ! we'll work hard tgt !!

Nerraw : thanks! (:

passerby : well, i wasnt at first. But my bf and others told me that i cant cry now at this time, because time is not gona wait for me ? so yup, i have to stand up and make my right decision ! (:

thanks to all who care and wish me luck and everything ! (: i aprreciate it all, and thank nini for being there. Cheering me all the way and making me laugh non-stop. i love friends, i love family, and definitely i love my bf too. (:

everyone is loved ! (:

writtern @10:48 PM

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Okay, its kinda unlikely of me to post first before i do anything with the comp. what i meant was, checking mails and chatting with friends and reading my friend's post. But i've got alot to tell, before my senile relapse, i think i should post what i want to say. haha! (:

Well, i went out with bun, pala, boma and nini to polys to see out for the courses that we're interested and getting to know bout the courses and such. Might be appealing or may not be. We'll see how.
And i know that many of my friends, that's including me (:
are all disappointed with our O lvl result. In fact, i wasnt unhappy or sad or even disappointed with mine. But i was truly disheartened to see and E8 left there. It's permanent, for goodness sake. And in addition, its one of the most impt subject, and that's english (:

I didnt dare looked at it, and didnt dare to peep at it. I held my sister badly at the hall and hugged her when i was holding on to it and sign my name there. And when i reach the place where i sat, i cried it all out and for goodness. It's a damn E8 that leaves my slip an ugly one ! ):
but im fine now (: after really much cry, its no more time left bout it. i need to stand up and clear it all, and be strong. (:

To my dear friends, or any readers,
especially for bun ! (:
i've seen u today, upset. it doesnt matter (:
as a girl, we can afford to lose our time, but not too much though !
Its better to end up studying, than working now.

Frankly, i was just like you when i first recieve my result, i was totally in a damn black blank. And it was really my first time taking result, being like this (: not much of you know bout my past, and it was really terribly badly done (:

TIPS OF GETTING STARTED ! (:

Get ur mind clear now, and stop the crying once you're down. No more sadness, and think bout it. Read thru the booklet, and see what courses you're able to get into, and u seems to like it or seems to be interested bout it. Dont anyhow hamtump one course say u like bout the name of the course. BUT get to know what's the course about (: ask and ask, open ur ears and listen. Open ur mind and follow ur heart (: Still dont dare to make decision ? ASK someone older and experienced, MAKE FULL USE of the time u've got now. STOP asking ur friend, as they receive the results the same time as you, and they cant really do any decision for you as all of us are parting ! (:

After setting ur mind aside, get along with it (: It's time for u to think that should u go to Poly, or ITE. (i'm not saying JC because its totally redundant actually.)
To me : i've got quite a good result, its just that my english had made my chances of gg in to poly is real slim, so im trying my best now to get into it (:

SO, what u can do it, if u get and E8 or F9 in eng. No worries, i've got choices for u to make

A : Work for this yr, and retake Eng as private. But pls, go to tuition centre for lessons and do commit with it ! Keep up ur motivation, and plan what course u do really want to take. Do compre do compo weekly and dont give up! (:
ps : if you need tuition centre, do call me up ! i can recommend you (:

B : After the JAE, look out for the results and see which course and sch still have any vacancies. Let this be a stepping stone, its still the same. Wasting one more yr. Go into it, and make sure u pass ur test and everything. And u still do have to retake ur Os for eng. And since u get a better result, COMBINE UR CERT TGT and go into the course u've aimed for that you've worked hard the next yr.

C : go to ITE and see what u can do there. But rmb, do what u feel like doing. Because the decisions still lies with you ((: No worries bout thinking ppl will look down on you or SO WHATEVER ! give no damn about it and look at ur bright future (:

D : Retake ur O's in sch (: It'll be much or less same as C (:

OF COURSE ! its still your choice, and rmb to follow ur heart. the decision still lies within you. I bet you yourself know what u want to do. its just taht, you do not have any courage to show that you're capable of it, or you're just doubting urself.

I am doubting myself actually. Im a girl with big motivation and have a strong fighting spirit at first. But when it comes to a long run, i'll be drained and dead. JUST LIKE running a 2.4km. I FEEL TOTALLY ENERGETIC and love running. but when i run to 400m, im dead. im totally dead. SO ya, im kinda still doubting myself.
i actually chose to work first for one yr, then take private O and back to sch the next yr, but seems like my uncle doesnt like it as he guarantee i cant study much when im working.
so im heeding his advice, CHOOSING OPTION B ! (:

i dont mind learning new stuffs ? haha ! i hope its gona be okay, and i hope it helps ! (: Well, idk if my tips are useful. BUT MY FRIENDS ARE STILL FINDING THEIR WAY THRU ! so i tot posting it up will be better, than repeating my own words again and again to each and one of them feeling sad (: yup.

ALL THE BEST MY LOVES ! (:
i'm always here, never fails !
im giving this tips because i've consulted alot of ppl (:
my bf, one RP teacher, one NYP teacher and my uncle thats my tuition uncle (:

Humanities : C5 ( i've never pass in my sec life, hard work is being paid off (: )
Maths : B3 (disappointed ): )
Science : A2 ( same as my N lvl. achievable ppl ! (: )
POA : A2 ( drop a grade from N's ): )
MT : C6 (ITS CONSIDERED GOOD ! )

GOODNIGHT ! (:
anyway, u might think that how come my bf's able to give me advise. Because he himself experience before (: and he shld know it better than my family or anyone that i know (: and he's a good advicer in everything i do.
Just why, you see me consuting him first, before i do anything. haha !
THANKS to my dearest bf ! (:
and never forgetting those ones that i love (:

writtern @1:14 AM

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

PLAY VOLLEYBALL ANYONE ?!
IM FREE FROM WORK NOW !
AND I JUST WANNA PLAY AND GET SHAG !

shopping maybe too ?!
anything man !
i want some sports maybe ?
running should be acceptable.

i need lose down some fats (:

writtern @12:04 AM

Monday, January 12, 2009

GETTING RESULTS IN 13 HRS TIME! (:

ok, im not much of any feelings at the moment.
i wanna drug myself with cough syrup again,
but marini scolded me. -.-!
and coincidently, the news came out,
a 13 yr old student drink 4 bottles of it,
and its on the news now.

it so happen when we were talking bout it online,
and my mom showed to me.
just got back from supper, gona shower and slp.
prays hard (:

writtern @1:16 AM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

OH MAN !
O lvl results are on 12th Jan.
once i've learnt bout the date of releasing of Os.
I swear i have sleepless nights.
ITS SHIT MAN !
im back with damn insomnia )':
i feel terrible.
i need my dreams, my slp, my bed !

effiecient in my life k ! dont play play hor !
ok, really. im tired. haha !

bf came over last night to stay over.
we intend to rent movie, but didnt as i have it a few at home.
and since we planned to watch movie.
after i shower out, and listen to radio,
WE SLPT ! haha !
but i didnt slp la. i kept coughing ):
he slpt soundly though.
one cute thing was, jess suddenly came in and laugh.
asking what we both doing when both of us were obviously slping.
but then i soon fall aslp for an hr to work ! ;DD

i was so dead. i went late and went off early. haha !
ok, catching midnight movie later with bf ! (:
last date for the week as he's gg back to camp ! weeets.

Xoxo;

writtern @10:08 PM

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

I lost my damn IC.
No mood to blog.
No mood to text.
No mood to chat.

i dont think i can slp tonight ):
im super worry.

writtern @10:47 PM

SWEET DAY TODAY! (:

First day of new work place! (:
super near my hometown ! ;DD
so my two lovely gfs came down to peep at me !
Nini got her ass near me before she head to work.
Boma came to have lunch with me while she need to pass me a top.
Not bad, met up with the two girls today (:
quite a pleasure to see them after quite some time.
It's a missing that it's kinda irreplaceable.
I need my friends too just like how i need my bf (:

Valentine is on sat !
14th feb !
though we've been celebrating twice for everything with bf.
we've never been tgt on Valentine day and Lunar New Year.
kinda upset, im gg overseas on Lunar New Year ):
Cant see my darling boy for two weeks probably. )':
but i hope we're gona spend a lovely candle lit dinner on that special day (:
and poor him ): gona spend his money again. haha !
No worries, i'll rent a room, not for me,
but for my family. HAHA !
then i'll buy candles and go to the groceries,
maybe we can just whip up something,
and have alil alcoholic drinks at home.
that may be how we gona celebrate our First Valentine.
HAHA ! but not too much hope and wishes on it.

because simplicity is the best ! (:
loves baby,
and friends ! (:
not forgetting my lovely family members.
ps : do you know how great and strong is the power of love ? (:

anyway,
anyone know when is O lvl result out ?
when does our sch start ?
i need do some shopping for my bag, shoes and clothing.
oh mannnnn.

writtern @12:57 AM

Saturday, January 03, 2009

IM BLOODY TALKING TO MYSELF !(:

writtern @3:12 PM

Thursday, January 01, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL (:

i spend a lovely new yr with bf just the two of us.
and we actually watch 12am movie. haha !
nothing much bout this year compared to the previous year.
lols ! simplicity is the secret to success ! ;DD haha !

writtern @2:43 PM