ROXANNE (;

Friday, March 31, 2006

muii huggies doggies.

writtern @11:26 PM

happi birthday GIRL!!! hahs. mwahs.

writtern @11:24 PM

volleyball jersey.. twist ^^v

writtern @11:24 PM

hair is so messy n ii look lyk aunti. sobs

writtern @11:23 PM

im dreaming..

writtern @11:22 PM

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Myspace Glitter Graphics, MySpace Graphics, Glitter Graphics

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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

HEY GUYS..SO SAD..ii kept listening to the song..the one ii lyk..n its lyk..hais.

Ohh I wanna let you know
That I'll always love you baby
Sometime I think about
Everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would just open your eyes
I love you I need you
So please don't throw our love away

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

oh gosh..ii sprain muii ankle after the gers 4X100m..damn it..n ii still have 1 more event for the mix relay..goodness..ii feel so bad tt we gort last for mix relay..but gort 3rd for gers relay..they were lyk the 1st..n when the baiton pass to mii..ii became 3rd..hais. sad..

takkaiire..muacks..ii miiss him..=(( hais.
21.03.06

writtern @10:13 PM

Monday, March 27, 2006

sad la today..recess time..ii don wish to sae la..juz feel so sad after _____________________ ... fill in the blanks urself..to wadeva wad ur thinking is..

im sad lor..hais.. today went to stadium..so happi coz can see him run..den reach there...woodlands stadium no open..so angry can..piang..den somemore an hr ago b4 goiin to stadium..gort assembly..but mr ong neva check den juz sae on..stupid idiot..

aii ya..ii dono wad to blog..den keep thinking of him when tuition..ii didnt get a single right for muii tuition question ok..n he was lyk..high blood pressure..den ii think he noe ii gort trouble..den he keep giving mii stress..keep snapping the finger..asking mii..how come all muii basic all erase alreadii isit..wad happen to eu today..den juz keep asking n asking lor..juz feel so stress..n im missing him..he didnt tok n call mii for the whole day..N I SEEMS SO LOST WITHOUT HIM!!mom sae don lurve too deep..but juz kant help digging the hole deeper n deeper to fill muii lurve in there..wif beautiful colours n memorise..((:

takkaiires. lurve ya..
muacks..
21.03.06

writtern @9:41 PM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

hahas..went for tuition today..in upp. thomson roads. yeaps. den were quite energetic..dono yy la..hahas..den did well in muii compre..=)) cousin came..den off ii go..coz ii end ler ma..different timing..so after tt ii went to opposite bowen sec.the wad vision hospital..there is to help the old folks there hu stay there de..erm..juz to takkaiire of them la..sort of these..den 1 of muii relative n muii greatgrandma was there...so ii went there after tuition..den ok ok la..wah..reach there.. muii "yi po" ask mii...wah..eu gort b.f ler ar..ii was lyk..wth..how come so mani ppl noe..which ii dono yy their aintainer so long la..hahas.

den they ask mii to break off..sae..yy mux be malay..den yy choose malay..alort of things la..den alort of things came out from their mouth..den muii grandma come alreadii..wah!!! another mouth sae..wah..left ear in..right ear cannot go out alreadii..coz right ear muii grandma keep saeing n saeing..den b4 goiin to the hospital..papa ask mii don choose malay...yy choose malay..they veri "bian tai"..ii was lyk..oh..ok.ii noe..ii noe..k k..lucky left ear no one toking..so..the words..left ear juz lyk machine gun..RUN SO FAST!! hahas..but veri sad la..coz they veri anti social n veri racist..ii dono wad to tell muii mom..ii feel lyk wanting to tell her..but scared she oso veri racist..den ii more sad..rite? so wad for ii let muiiself more sad..ii try to tell mama one day..hope she reali can understand how ii feel..is irrestible..ii kant help falling in lurve wif malay..so no use tryna change mii over..it all depends on muii feelings.. srys. ii scared when ii marry to a malay guy..den they object strongly..till tt time comes den sae bahs.

now ii hope mama happii everyday..don be lyk muii greatgrandma..she kena scold by muii grandma...den grandma damn fierce okay..she scold n scold..den muii heart break sia..den ii wanna stop her but kant..coz she's older den mii..have to respect..den ii saw one auntie she cry..oh gosh..ii dono wad to do..heart break oso..piang..lyk see them lyk tt muii heart cannot take it..den went outside n take a deep breath..whole day was there..so tryna catch some fresh air.. sad..ii hope mama stay free from sickness..so ii can lurve her everyday..ii see her everytime smoke n frown..make mii more worse..somemore shes muii lurve one..the nos. 1 in muii list..kant bear to let her be so unhappi..so im striving hard..wanna make her feel happi..ii wanna her to live happi everyday..so tt she wont have to frown..=)) mama..smile plz.ii miss ur laughter..:))

lurve eu mama.. MUACKS!!
21.03.06

writtern @8:02 PM

Friday, March 24, 2006

hais. sometimes..iits meant for ur own good..but it doesnt seems to work..told him tt..his leg pain..he is having difficulty in walking alreadii..den he still wanna play soccer.. dono wad his up to..den see him walking in tt way..makes mii more hurt..den he don wanna listen..he tort tt im angry..im nort..im sad..hurt..bout wad he does..n ii think tt he is playing happily..=(( forget it..its over..his playing now..ii kant stop him. hais.

ytd..went to woodlands stadium to find him after muii volleyball training..coz badrun n fadil come to skool wif their bicycle..den ii ask them to go woodlands stadium..on the way there mii n mag can laf till stomach cramp..hahas. reali stomach cramp..den reach stadium..madeleine leg tired alreadii..den she cannot cross the road..scared too slow..den ii juz ride n speed..den ii forgotten ii dono how to dong pang ppl ma..den madeleine walk walk walk.. den ii look behind. wah..mag so behind..den go back n ii tort ii could ride her..den ask her to sit..wah..at first tort veri easy..but when start to step on the peddle..the bicycle head start to lose control.. den keep making left n right..hahas. veri funni la..ii reali laf till lyk hell..

den reach stadium..saw him run 4X100m. den they drop the baiton..wah..he run veri fast sia..to mii la..ii miss the moments..oh gosh..=)) hais. im missing him..its muii privacy..don wanna tell eu guys wad happen..hahas. den juz think tt..ii lurve him bahs. wadeva.. WAITING FOR HIS CALL!!! damn it..he.. everytime make mii wait for his call..hais.. takkaiire guys..muacks..=))
21.03.06

writtern @9:29 PM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

hie guys..ii didnt update muii bloggy coz ii gort loads of hw to do..hahas..k now..im so freaking angry bout tt fucking su..she bloody hell go tell syg tt he have bad taste choosing mii..fucking idiot..afiq oso bad taste..ii didnt criticise eu..yy the fucking hell eu come n criticise mii..fucking shit eu are lor..lyk bitch lyk tt..BITCHES!!!mad dog!!! siao gina..kb kia..hahas.. feel lyk kicking her ass..pui..nvm.. he ask mii nort to be angry..so ii shant be..hahas.

hais. wad to type more..so mad bout him..hahas. he is being so siao..II WAN CAMP TO COME FASTER!! sec 2 NYAA camp..wees..den can play wif him again..lolx.. humph..k la..nth to update..will update more if ii have things on muii mind to sae to muii bloggy..

takkaiire everyone..
muacks.
21.03.06

writtern @8:16 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

hmm..im back from muii camp..woots..ton the whole nite..n im freaking slpy okays..all muii frenz KO alreadii..except for some leaders n ppl hu are in the amazing race..they had such a tiring day..but they still wanna tok n tok in skool..hahas.ii slpt for 10 hrs..gosh..kant believe it..ii slp lyk a pig..ii tort it was onii few hrs lyk less den 4...how would ii noe when ii slp..is 9+ n den when ii woke up is 5+ to 6+...hahas...nn ii was freaking shock..mom sae..wah..eu 1 day ton..lyk 3days 2 nite neva slp lyk tt..lolx..nort funni okays..hahas..k.ii noe im laughing..lols..

hmm...mii ton wif zaki n hadi or heldi..ii dono how to spell his name la..ii keep making fun of them..so funni..hahas..than they veri nice to disturb..nn tt zaki..he siao alreadii..ii chase him lyk mad ger lyk tt..den all of us telling each others ghost stories..nort 3 of us..is the whole ppl hu ton..20 plus..den everyone start to KO alreadii..hahas..left 10..or lesser..humph..quite a nice camp actually..hahas..everyone pass except one of them..hais. feel so sad for him..n im so bad tt ii could nort help him much..hais.

nvm..life has to carry on..eu mux perservere ok..takkaiire boii..don give up so easily..eu can do it..=)k..humph..being a leader waiting at the station..is totally sux..i've waited for the 5 teams to arrive have to wait for 2 hrs++ ok..n is lyk..our lunch have digested..LOL!!

at CCAB...last station..we were bout to leave the station..n ii took everyone wallet..except mine okay..freaking angry..no mood to eat muii dinner ok..see the food so nice..hahas..den ii ate nth in the end..middle of the night it starts to sing song..hahs!! den juz don care la...den gastric pain lor..idiot..kant tahan..now ok ler..hahas...den reach home no strength at all..hahas..feeling so weak..hahas..ii have to stop alreadii..coz tml is muii late grandpa aniversary..so ii have to pray for him..waking up early tml..hais. ii scared ii will cry..ii miss him badly..hais.k la..good nite guys..
sweetdreams n takkaiire..

xanne was here b4..

writtern @11:51 PM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

keke..wad to type for today?? k..wad ii did in the morning..was..when ii woke up from muii bed..muii family start to shout muii name..n keep calling n calling..so ii was wondering yy the freaking hell when ii woke up everyone starts to call mui name..n ii juz reaise tt..muii dog pee..n she SHIT!!! wah..nice starting of mui day rite..hahas.k la..if eu wanna have a pet in ur hs..eu reali have to clean all these things lor..ii don mind..coz ii lurve her..hahas.

ii bath for her..muahahaha...quite fun la..but she keep..dono how to sae..den the water keep splashing..oh gosh..whole shirt wet of coz..hahas.. den muii sis tryna irritate mii..which ii can stand her..damn..feel lyk pouring the water on her whole body man..the urine of muii pet..hahas. im nort a bad ger ok..tryna vent muii anger..hahas..no la..juz joking..den had a long time drying her ok..she keep running away..till the light bulb above muii head blink..n i've gort an idea..hahas..is to shut all the door up..n carry her..n blow her dry..n the whole kitchen was her smell..n muii maid says its stinks..ii don think so..hahas. ii dono yy..smth wrong wif muii nosel ii guess. hmm..after bathing for her..ii wanna bath..so when ii walk over her. she start to bark n whine..hahas. den ii have to wait for her to turn over den ii can run..tiring man..hahas..

takkaiire guys..
=)

writtern @7:21 PM

Friday, March 10, 2006

hmm..im nort a loner animore..coz ii gort back muii doggy(puffy)..she rox man..lolx..but she is so THIN tt she don even have the strength to run ok..omg..gona lurve her so much n takkaiire of her now..=)

hmm..leader camp is coming round the corner again..damn excited..hehe..TAF carnival too..can eu believe tt..teachers gona sit there n see the leaders run the show..n we had meetings..to meet up wif the discussion..everyone is so cooperating..quite happi..where times..eu have to cooperate..eu have to..okay boma?? trust mii...n when times eu hate her..ii noe..but..learn to forgive n forget..mayb the hatred in eu juz seems kant get rid..mayb onii in leadership training camp,,try to be frenz..but as in eu noe?? cooperate frenz..as eu both goiin to lead the whole show..of netball tournament for TAF..so..think of wad ii sae kays? lurve ya..takkaiire..o ya..n ur result..hope eu neva kena scold by mama worx..don lie too much..coz ur daughter will do it to eu..retribution..think of others too..muacks..

hmm..lurve..is tt all? lurve is all bout jealousy..lurve is blind..lurve may seems to be everything..all eu have was memories..as some was the past..n eu kept everything in ur mind..which can hardly be erased..rite? yeaps. ii noe..all ii wan was a little true lurve from him..tts all ii wish for..n im fuck up wif tt bloody fucker yamin ok..he juz fucking sux..behind him..ii can scold n keep hating him..but wheneva ii look at him..into his eyes..he makes muii heart melts..god damn it..for goodness sake..make mii forget bout the lurve in muii heart..but ii still lurve tt someone..wheneva ii saw him wif another ger walking..muii blood vessels boil..feel wif anger n bloody freaking jealousy..ii hate jealousy can..argh..forget it..ii have to let it go someday..n forget bout him..mama mayv bringing mii go overseas study..tuition encourage mii to go..hais. juz kant bear to leave muii frenz..n by the way..theres still yrs to go..they might forget..lolx..

lurve eu guys!! muacks..takkaiire..

memories of 27.02.06

writtern @9:00 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

hais..we broke off. at 12+ in the middle of the nite..n the date was 06.03.06..where muii lurvely boma..2nd mnth..=) ii was damn hurt okays..he told mii tt he still lurve "___"..den wad for b4 stead wif mii..he sae he lyk boma for 1 yr..n wad for he wanna sae tt he had a crush on mii..n y the fucking hell ask for stead..juz to play wif mii?? hurt muii feelings??oh well..ii reali had nth to sae..ii had a big cry in recess time..boma came to lend mii her shoulder..quite touch actually..ii cry wif all muii heart...kant seems to stop it..went to see mr ong..he ask mii yy muii eyes red..den saif sae ya ya..she cry..hais. muii heart seems to stop beating wheneva ii saw him..he juz wont feel guilty for wad he did..he wont feel bad n sorry for wad he did ok!!!ii totally have no appetite..but he was enjoying his food..hais. moreover..b4 recess time..boma n mag told mii everything..the truth..bout he didnt sms mii tt 5 days...these 5 days tt he didnt sms mii n reply mii...coz of alort of reasons..hais. ii found out..he's cheating muii feeling..ii do lurve the 1st n 2nd day we were together..tt will neva be forgotten..his the sweetest guy ii eva met..but there is one thing he is different from others..wheneva he talks..he neva face mii n tok to mii..hais.

alort of things happen these days..wheneva ii saw him..ii juz kant stop muii tears from flowing down..heart starts to break into another piece.. n ii wanna be wif him..again..neva will ii wanna be part wif him ok..hais..suffer for a week huh..knowing nth..tt time we were suppose to meet at interchange at 7..rmb?? he ponteng skool..OK!!!ii dono yy la..he don wanna meet mii den sae la..wad for he went to ponteng skool..lyk fuck sia..hais..ii no mood la..test..suppose can get full marks de ok..but ii gort 13..huh..wad the fucking hell is this..coz of bloody teacher didnt check muii assignment properly..tts yy ii made the same fucking mistake..

fucking no mood..is damn bloody..ARGH!!! II CANT STAND THE PAIN OK!!wheneva ii feel tt muii heart is in pain..ii feel lyk cutting muii wrist again..to feel the pain ok..but nth can compare to the feelings im having now..

ii dono when will muii wounds be a scar..n sew it foreva..don wanna see anithing thru the scars..neva will it be vanish..

writtern @4:55 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

hmm..im sad again lor..firstly..im going out wif muii dad..n ii was tying muii hair..so ii look around for muii clips...EVERYTHING IS GONE!!! fine..ii ask mui aunt whether she gort saw..she sae throw away alreadii..ok..nvms..den ii sae..ii buy new one..don argue wif mii..den ii goiin out alreadii...go to the table n take mp3..LOST!!! nort there...wah..this one ii getting high blood pressure alreadii..is muii birthday present..n she...ii dono whether she throw or keep it la..but ii freaking fed up..CAN OR NORT!!!!! muii thing!!! she go freaking throw it or take it..hais. ... LYFE REALI SUX!!!

ii went to see muii great grandma today..she had a fall..alort of things happen too..den she went to hospital..den her leg was in pain..she kant reali move tt much..ii wanna help her massage for her..but im too afraid..n ii wanna be a nurse..hu tends to help old ladies..n than massage for her..to make their blood circulate..im goiin to learn!!! erm..forget it..today..ii found out tt..muii sis lurve mii loads..n yet..ii treated her lyk a piece of shit..

hmm..forget it la..don sae animore ler..he havent msg mi again..ii called him..but no one answer..n by the way..tml is skool wor!!! ii can see him if his coming to skool..im so excited!!hehe..wanna quickly go slp den tml comes..muahaha..catch up wif eu guys lata!! takkaiire.. buaiz..=)

27.02.06

writtern @9:06 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

im sad..again..yeaps. no suprise..coz im always sad uh..ii went to sentosa today..ii sun tan..but no result..ii saw guys..no interest..coz..all of the time..im always looking at muii hp n thinking of him..hais. n ii gort alort of news today..ii had a great blow today..hais.. actually.. wanna vent muii anger here...but ppl will think im juz trying to get attention..n desperate for sympathy..so forget it..i'll use another special way of dealing muii depression..it clears all...
foreva

xanne

im a heartless creature..hu kant feel anithing..animore..coz im dead..

writtern @10:02 PM

Friday, March 03, 2006

eu noe..there is somethings tt..eu don lyk..nort interested..n eu don wanna do it..n for mii..ii totally hate chinese..im having tuition juz now..n ii have chinese for today..n so..he keep asking mii yy didnt do muii chinese hw..okay la..ii noe its muii fault..n he sae..eu don lyk chinese..n so wadeva..ii don lyk his question la..im either lazy..or nort interested..iim totally nort interested..wad for eu force mi to do..his chinese SUX too okay..suppose to read it as "shou" he read it as "zhou"..so ask him go back n study la..still wanna teach mii chinese..im reading the passage n he keep pestering mii..n when im reading..the passage is toking almost similar to lurve..tts where muii dreams are floating above muii head..

i had a dream...ii dreamt tt we broke off...n he leave wifout noeing tt..im in lurve wif him..he tort tt im still lurving yamin..which ii dono yy..ii reali tort is true..so ii kept on slping..n when ii woke up..ii didnt even noe whether was it true or nort..n it comes all in muii mind..hais.its been 2 days..tt ii haven't receive his sms..ii dono la..is either he is avoiding mii..or he don lyk mii..or WADEVA!! II DON WANNA THINK SO MUCH!!!IT REALI MAKES MII MAD!!! NN TT BLOODY KERWIN!! MIND UR WORDS!!! THINK EU GORT G.F BIG DEAL AR!!! DONO ENGLISH IZZIT..SAEE DON ITTIRATE MII ALREADII EU STILL SAE IRRITATE MII IS FUN..NORT FUNNY OKAY..EU DAMN ~~FUCKING~~ BLOODY IDIOT FOOL LA!!!!

hais. eu noe..times..eu have to think other feelings la..don sae "play" the word..coz im freaking sensitive now okay..sry if ii have scolded eu or vent muii anger on eu..sry..=(

27.02.06

writtern @9:59 PM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

hie guys..ii feel terribly sad for today...ii am suppose to meet him in interchange at 7 o'clock SHARP!! n ii reach there bout 7..n..IM SO FREAKING HAPPI!!! coz..we didnt reali see n tok tt much ytd..n the bus came..it turns out..to be a terrible starting day..ii wanted to wait for him..but..boma sae go..den ii go lor..den ii was thinking..is he reali coming to meet mii..is he late?? is he coming to skool? ii have lorts of question in mind..n ytd nite..ii slept around 1+ to 2..n ii wokt up at 4.45..coz he woke up at this time..i've waited for his sms from 7++ n it turns out.. hais. don wanna sae..

so ii tort he was late..im tryna to give hope to muiiself..n ii sae..ii am goiin to see him in recess time..where our tables were near each other..so ii sat there..n wait n wait..n he didnt come..n ii can treat it as..his sick..tts yy he didnt come..or he didnt come to skool coz he went to hospital for check up or so wadeva..coz he claims tt he have headach after coming back home after discharge..n there is one thing tt he is totally veri irresponsible..he didnt even msg mii at all..

ii've look at muii hp everytime..ii ask azili yy..n im so lucky tt ii listen to boma..coz..she told mii to board the bus..n ii didnt wait for him..if ii do..ii might be still sitting down there lyk an idiot..hais. it hurts la..im reali sad...

he makes mii lurve a preson deeply again..yet..he doesnt even wanna treasure it..
*ii lurve him*

27.02.06

writtern @6:20 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

sry guys.. to wad ii had did to muii bloggy darling..LOL!!..okays..
lets get started..

1st of all..
ii wanna sae is..there is alort of things happening..especially lurve..okays..today..think gona tok bout mui lurve lyfe ler ba..humphs. lets see..
yamin ->muii ~~dearest~~ ex
someone ->current stead..

tt someone revive muii lurve..he makes mii feel great..he gives mii the lurve ii wanted from yamin..he makes mii feel happi..ii lurve to see him..but there is one thing..tt he makes mi so worry for him..he went to hospital cozz of health problem..nn ii am so bad..tt ii could nort even be with him till he have to go home..he send mii home..except today..coz he gotta go to the so wadeva NCC thingy..he looks cyute man!! the day we stead..was the day ii fall..nort tt badly actually..coz..ii noe..ii juz wanna be with yamin..iim suppose to wait in the cozway for him to turn up..but in the end..was onii badrun n tt someone..since he doesnt wanna mii to patch back wif him coz he had another g.f..which was more prettier den mii..n he told badrun tt ii am toking nonsense..n i've wasted muii tyme on him..(now den ii noe)n it so happen tt..tt someone..tends to treat mii nice..he talks to mii..take mui bag,sit wif mii..n sort of..eu noe lyk..chats wif mii when he noes im sad n he looks so cyute when he sits wif mii..lol..im in lurve..haha..den when ii went home..he send mii home wif azili n badrun la.
.mii n him sit togther..azili n badrun.. den he ask mii to sit 1 round..den ii sae ii kant..too bad..or else ii could stay longer wif him..ii reach home..ii sms him n sae sry..tt ii couldn't be wif him.. for wad he wanted..n he actually asked mii to be his g.f..ii agreed..coz..he gave mii the feeling ii needed for lurve..how could ii lose it?? n badrun told mii tt he change..n im assured..im having confidence in him..so wad for..shuld ii wait for tt idiotic ass..as he saes tt he onii want pretty gers..oh well..times tell mii tt i've reali wasted 7 mnths being wif him..lurving him..im being a fool for 7 mnths..but too bad..its juz lurve..since ii lurve him from last yr..n it kant be back..no regrets..

ii onii wanna be wif him..his unavailable.. eu kant get muii hands off him..coz..ii will hold him in muii heart.. (lurve him)

takkaiire guys..

muii blog have revive too..coz of muii non laziness..LOL!!

muacks..

27.02.06

writtern @2:57 PM