ROXANNE (;

Monday, June 30, 2008

HEY YOUUU ! Its seriously surprising that im seriously serious about my social studies now. hah ! In fact, i went for Combine Humanities ( fyi : its my most hatred subject ) tuition TODAY ! I have to turn up due to my butthole blogger Ms Qianhui;loves. hahh. Afraid that those girls would turn up and yea, she's left all alone. Hence i turned up. In the end ? Me and her was the one having fun and making noise actually =/ heh ! But i learn new stuffs today with her, of course ! I do love tuitioning with her, its the sweeet thing i can do with her i guess ? lols !

See how you can identify the creatures there ! ;DD fyi, the right one is not a creature. (:

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo ;DD

So there's this one day when i got 'pangsai' by one particular guy. Seriously made my mood swing and got so PFFTS ! Then this guy came my hs meeting my whole family ? And this small girl was so obssess with him over now and then asking me where is he and why am i chatting with him. I think her addiction was him now, i guess ? Horrible girl who fell in love so fast just like fast and furious ? And she got so crazy over him, in just, ONE day. ONE DAY LA HELLO ?!

oohh, don mind me being fugly taking pics with both of them. JESSLYN got obvious DOUBLE CHIN ! HAHAHAH ! =/ In fact, my whole family has it. wtfag ):

ooh, and there's this one day im finding for something in my past few postssss. i saw this cute pic. hahaha ! And i didnt realise i have that small waist. Next time i shall update my NEW WAIST and hopefully i wont get shocked by it though. =/ so scare to take that measuring tape to measure my waist after, almost half a yr. I guess im growing fat thoughh ):

I didnt realise this is my 1003 post ? HAH ! i should have post it on 1000. But, was too anxious on posting, hence i quickly just click and click and click to get to this page and started typing . Well, i guess im ready for tmr's SS test. hah ! cant wait. And im so shag now due to a few hrs of slp with so many hrs of studying squeezing my brain juices out to work out sums.

Goooodnight lovess ;
xoxo ;D

writtern @11:44 PM

Sunday, June 29, 2008

heyhey ! time to come back to have some chat with your heart that's reading my blog in each every single word right ? I know you came to my log just to kill some time aint it ? Well, thats right ! But there's smth i would like to say ? Not today ? Lol. I wanted to rant myself over here actually. Been thinking why i join nuffnang for ?
**FYI : my readers have dropped ! aww ):

For fame ? For money ? For anything that's possible in joining ? LOL. In fact, i totally have no idea why too ? I did it just because ppl are doing it ? I don think so too. Im not much of a follower unlike someone. Who does, like always. Just like how a stalker always do. Well, not much of a topic, today will be a super random of randomly jumping into any topic. So try catch some balls if you can. ;DD

Thing's not really going smooth at the moment. But we all know that life's short, and many were thinking that they still have alot of time to deal with those small lil things they all have about. And that's smth that people would want to correct about. Smoking, caueses cancer, and a lot of bad unhealthy stuffs in that stick. Just like some 4000+ of poison going in when u smoke that one stick, or even a puff. Frankly, i've tried before. Its totally not nice ? All you can feel was, only the cold air going down thru ur throat and to your lungs and out from your mouth, again ? And that, you have to pay HOW MANY BUCKS for a day or two ? Think bout it.

I cant deny that im a second hand smoker now. Wherever i go, Whenever i step into this house. I was addicted to the smoke that my family members had did. Or even when im out of this hs and have a stroll, i will always smell ciggerates where those smokers puff out their smoke from their mouth. Disgusting aint it ? But why i aint the one getting sick and going thru those treatments that others had ? Why i aint the one getting than those who know how to treasure things more than me ? For those who knows how to live well whereas idk how to for everything ?

Why are the others smoking, yet they aint getting compared to those who live in a healthy lifestyle ? If i were to say that, im cursing my family to death. My family smokes, and all of us were an addiction of second hand smoker. I guess when im going for X-ray and do some check up, you wont get to see blackkkkk at my lungs, you'll see white stuffs. -.-!

Or mayb time will reveal when it's my time too ? Or even yours too. So why not live well and start growing up and learn to be yourself ? Live your life up to the fullest. World is ending soon too with those dumb illnesses, disasters and stupid mas selemat might be one of them too ? Hah. Well, live it well. You only have one.

One life. Live it.

Anyone have any idea that im promoting M1 ? ;DD

goodnight all ! im gona wake up at 245 to catch germany with spain. Finals of euro. Can u believe ROXY watching soccer ? Of 22 people chasing over one ball ? One unique ball i guess ?OH ! i forget to add a refree. thats total of 23. And the side of the court too ! Thats 25 mayb ? ;DD

xoxo ;

writtern @11:56 PM

Friday, June 27, 2008

Oh, you know what ? Mentioned geog test last night. Guess im the first to flung it all. Laugh out loud. Mirror mirror on the wall, why is there so many people telling me that COMBINE HUMANITIES is so freaking easy and they are able to Ace their O lvl -.-! For me, i think its the hardest shit in all the subject la can ? PFFFTS ! ):

ahhh, i had body extension. LOLLL !

did this in chemistryyy. LOLL ! boma took these cute lil beakers ? i almost wanna steal it. =/ buttttt, they make me feel guilty cause they need it go back to their family members mahhh. with their measuring cylinder, pipette and marini's head. (:

another cute porcelin. CAN I JUST STEAL ALL THOSE CUTE LIL THINGS ?! BAHH ! anyway, my calculate look cute too. That's marini headddd. hehh =PP

When you're heartbroken, only your love could heal it all. And will you be the one that are able to heal my wound ? Lols. Jesslyn finally can get along with my bf =.=! They were like, ohmygoodness-so-cold-friends when they were meeting at the 1st time. But you know what ? This time round got 180 degree eh ? SHEESH ! They were so GOOOODY friends. In fact, Jesslyn's bf not shawn anymore ? Become my bf's gf. -.-! AND NOW I BECOME MISTRESSSS ! watthehell ? If im not wrong, i rmb it vaguely, i was half-conscious as i was slping and he was playing with babyjess. She came in and say, "Shawn give to you okay, i change my bf liao. This one is my bf alr." ;DD and she gave that laugh i think. Giggling away like a LADY. .___. With her hands covering her mouth ? SHEESH !

Moreover, she took my hp to take his pic. Then got 2 relative came, and family reached home. She take my hp and SHOW EVERYONE saying " THIS IS MY BF LEHH ! NO MORE SHAWN ALR." How can a four year old kid do that ? -.-!

I'm heartbroken le laaa ): Jesslyn just snatch away my bf ): How could she when she's just almost FOUR years old ? Im 17 this year and ima such a loser who lose to a "stupid" kid. BAHHH !

Ehh... i want work. ;DD
i want moneyyy.
and then spend it !
shop it !
sell it !
buy it !
have funnn manggg ! ((:
lolsss. seee yaaa. ;DD

writtern @9:59 PM

Thursday, June 26, 2008

You know what ? Im not gona study for my Geog test tmr (: Im too tired to carry on anything else, but i have no idea why im here too. BAHH ! Sch end at 6 laaa ? and rushed to tuition and end at 9. Im really really tiredddd. ):

I've been receiving bad news since the start of this week. -.-! I got it here and i got it there. I hear it in and things cant get it out of my head after processing it thru my brain. My brain cells are minimising, my brain juices are dehydrating. My mind's going mad and my thinking isnt going far. In fact, im dying.

Ohohoh, now i really realise that home's much better than any places. Well, my friend, you needa learn how to take care of yourself when ur at home, alone ? Just beware of things going on actually. You'll be fine. Remember there's always friends around you to cher u up and encourage u to do and be by ur side when u need someone.

MY FLU'S BACK IN ACTION. Split headache alr ): I bet i got difficulty waking up tmr, again. Finally, im ending sch 12.30 on friday. Like, over the 5 days, finally a short day. wooots (: I almost faint last night when i step into my bedroom. I can feel really giddy, lucky the door was damn near the bed. If not i woke up seeing myself with blue-black at my forehead -.-! And now, shit that. Terrible splitting headache. Well, time to head for bed. Goodnight peopleee. ;D

Stop pushing me to study when my mind's a blank. Its just like a pen with no ink and you're forcing the pen to write ? And come out with beautiful handwriting ? No ? All you get was only torn paper, because u just keep scribbling over and over just to let the ink run out. Well, now im that torn paper. Torn.

i hope everything turn out well tmr.
There's nth to worry, sweets.
I'm always here for you, no matter what.
Everything's fine. ily (:

writtern @10:54 PM

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Im back from tuition, and im soooo dead beat now. Eyes closing soon anyway, and i met up with another bitch today in tuition. She just kept staring. Felt like digging her eyes RIGHT on the SPOT ! pffts. so what if u have bigger eye ? No big deallll ? .___.

imy la ?! its like sososo long i didnt meet you up. ):
i didnt chat with u for hrs, seems like a day.
i didnt see u for a day seems like a decade.
totally, horrible ):
simply, miss you. hehh ;DD

gooodnight lovesss;
(;
xoxo.

writtern @11:20 PM

DAMN ITTTT ! -.-! i regret being an NE Envoy for National Day. It is so gona be freaking embarrassing as im going UP on stage on that day. I need to turn up for rehearsal, when i seriously have no timeeeeee for that due to stress, tiredness + schs work + homework + tuition and etccc. ;DD i bet everyone down there will be laughing at " OHMYGAWD ! Roxy's up there singing and wearing that ugly Red Tee, OF WHAT SHE DESIGNEDDD ! " Imagine mannn -.-! i wouldnt dare to. .__.!

Though im "really" "proud" to be a Singaporean, well, i guess its time for me to show what Singaporean should DO ! hurhur, marini, stop it k. i know you'll be laughing (: like, over there pointing me and laugh at me and showing all ur teeth and unglam poses. hahaha ! =/ Anyway, i seriously find these things, DUMBB ! Definitely, a waste of time too. ;)

There's something i would really love to voice up to those girl / ahlian out there. Those wanna-be mayb ? hah. To your thinking, even though ur 17 or older or even younger -.-! You needa learn how to grow up, and keep ur eyes to yourself. If you dont know how to control, here's some advice. Pls wear sunglasses 24/7 so that ppl wont know that your STARING at that person. And if you think that being a woman is being an ahlian, damn it. Go look yourself into the mirror and see how you look like ? Walk from far towards ur mirror, look at the way you walk. You walk like you just got Fucked ! -.-! You swing your hand like you have no bones or nerves to handle your hand.

No self-discipline, lack of manners, rude and your unglam so whatever. Well, same goes to those bitch that i hate. You can call me bitch and so whatever that you may describe, because i don give a damn ? And learning to be yourself might be a way to stop me from calling you ugly names. It seriously irritates me when you lie and, bitch about. 2 words to give you, " YOU SUCK!" (((:

i've just got my leg extension.

went for learning journey trip, and this apnn friend of mine, who's always a joker an super dramatic-not-funny-man. He slpt in the bus till i spotted his head tilted so near to his shoulder. And so i took his pic. =/ SORRY PALAAAA ~ hahahaa ! i promise i go muthu restaurant k. hehh (:

Ahhh, so tiredddd. im having fun shoots at studio on next fri evening, real shoots on sat morning. And hoefully i got a job for M1 show on weekends, which i only have to spend 3 hrs there ?! Good pay too ! hehh, well, another selection. pffffts ~

writtern @4:35 PM

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

replies to taggs (:
nini : damn you man, you gotta know that she aint the victim. i kiss her got price to pay one k ! pffts =/ and you the one who should stop it. lolssss
Leon : hello bitch, i aint ur maid neither am i shawn's -.-! you needa meet me up to pay me, dumb ass bitch maid butthole (:
rachelle : idk wth you talking. ;DD hehh
shuyi : ooh, lolssss. ohkaysss. hope to see youu soon (:

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Simplicity lovedd ; flicking like a candle (:

Somehow, i went over to this little girl and say hi ;D i had great time with this don-like-to-bath girl. lolsss ! i tied her hair, and she looks hawt. i love her, veryveryvery the much, even though she is very irritating. I didnt have any intention of slapping her, but Nini was the one. ;DD

she smile the best even though she's sucking her pacifier. lolss (: sometimes, i really wanna be those cute lil pretty babies. They are just way too adorable. aww (:

Well well well, when i seriously get too bored and got myself into some emotional feelings. Its seriously time to chill myself down and learn to smile again. Learn to stand and walk again. hahh.

sweet fillings filled the sweet room.

bahhh, i seriously think that when u need a good massage and no one's there for you to HELP you do some great massage to meet up ur expectations and to kill those pain you've got. its seriously damn irritating and saddening. I pay you 5 bucks to help me have full body massage k. you cant get this deal anywhere anymore, time to book me ! QUICKKK ! start taggingggg ! lolssss =/

im seriously dead bored. tmr still got sch and tuition ):

writtern @11:22 PM

Monday, June 23, 2008

replies to tags (:
boma : hahh, precisely. if not why i ask u to watch ? lols.
qianhui : wastedddd, she's not in. PFFTS ! i would have kill her today. ;D
CHELLE : what top of the roof ? what talking you ? .__.
shuyi : yaaa. so, when can i see ya at centre coincidently again ? lols
nini : yaa, fight. quarrel la dey ! in tuition. you cant join unless u join my tuition. LOL =/ anyway, my eyebrown nicer than you PUH-LEASEE~ hahh
zhiqing : HAH ! belly dance -.-! i know you do the besttttt =P
qimei : she is definitely cuter than you !HAHA ! =/

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oh well well well, that girl aint in tuition. what an idiot. make me so excited to reach tuition asap to see her ! that face of hers that pissed me off the most. -.-! anyway, im seeing her tmr ya. alone -.-! damn her. gona call apnn rape her. lolss =/

well, there's smth i would like to voice out actually. Nowadays guys kept asking bout girl's privacy. Moreover, for a women's most confidential . Can you guess whats the common question now guys would ask a girl ? "Are you a virgin? " This question is rather disturbing for me. Time to listen up guys, if you seriously have nothing to chat with your admire/crush/girl-friends. Best is for u to let them tell you that they are virgin OR not. Is not up to you to ASK them that question when its so inappropriate.

Why would you need to know whether a girl is a virgin or not ? What would you do if that lady is not ? And what if it they are ? In a way thats question, its so wrong. And that could really let that lady have a misconception of view. Moreover, it will lead to a misunderstanding of your personality (: From my perception of view, i've encountered this question REAL load. This question once its ask by a guy, i guess they really need do some self-thinking bout their bloody fool question which is so dumb that are born with no brain. They seriously let me scold them till they realise where they went wrong. Well, you might say that its fine with you and its just a casual question and its the 21st century. Your so old fashion and such. Well, time to get over with it. You aint lady, you wont understand so stop it. -.-!

aunt's bird day today. and i light those candles, till the last, i burnt my thumb. and now, i swear its damn pain.... ))))))): sobs

OH YAAA !
i wonder how couples kiss with their spects. because, im having difficulties kissing jesslyn -.-! my spects keep either fall to the side, or went to stick to my face. lolssss. hate spectssss. BAHH ! .__.

writtern @9:44 PM

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Girl, i guess its time for you to stop climbing over my head. You irritate me the most, and i mean, MOST. Having the same tuition class with you do piss me off, and puh-leaseeee ! You must feel real honoured to be in the same class as me. Well, time to get ur brain cells cracking and burn it all. So what if you're from that oh-big-great-cool-girls-school ? Damn it ! In the 1st place, do you know me well ? Once that first point is mentioned, i don think i need to mention the others. -.-!

You simply accused me of being UNFRIENDLY. Moreover, we merely had no private chats or anything. Or even, when we are doing group work in english class, we merely had only less than 10 sentence of conversation ? (that was being forced to btw, DUHH ! -.-! ) Despite, swollowing my pride just to open my mouth to chat with ya, do you think thats worth it ? SOOOO WRONGGG ! But u know what ? Im really friendly, to have a nice real chat with ya. But i didnt know u had that great knive which stabs on ppl's back real well. Share with me where you buy that murderer weaponnn pls. ;DD

Whats more ? You just said my gf looks like she owe some beating FROM YOU. Well, we shall see who's the one who owe some beating. I think, you dont look that great either. No one's perfect, so do you. And i admit i am tooo (: Girl, you needa learn how to be friendly, instead of accusing people that they are unfriendly. And you also needa learn how to make new friends. You don have to let others saying that they must be honoured being your friends ? Because thats superb nonsensical and illogical. If you wanna have a good reputation in your oh-big-cool-great-girls-school, you better learn something now. No one's good to mess with, and so i kept my hands off you. Im washing your brain dudette, time to do self studying rather than, commenting on others you see ? Waste my time stooping down looking at you. PFFTS !

writtern @2:17 PM

replies to taggies ;D
bun : WHERE BLEEDING ?! go hospital k you. ;D
qianhui: huh ? lolsss. thanks anyway. hehh =P
nini : eyebrown looks much nicer ? hahaha ! yea, draw it, of course ? haha !
shuyi : WOMAN ! LONG TIME NO SEE ! u've came tagging. ;D miss ya and love you too. thanks pretty (:
qimei : you won frenda but u didnt won me k ! pfffts !
shawn : night woman, andddd, you must be a maniac, FOR ME ;D hahaha !

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lets start with this post with a goooood "morning" ;D Im pretty tired, but im still struggling here blogging and this blogger been givin me real loads of trouble due to, i keep closign this window and open another ! that really piss me off. (: well, now i can, it makes things much better.

well, im like dying due to being so fatigue. But i seriously have to come here and post due to jessy's video. Im serious. i think that you guys should really watch that damn video OKAY ! hahh.

i think she looks like someone in this pic. hahh

and definitely, she's damn gay with this GUESS sunglasses. lols

my new spects ? bahhh, ugly aint i ? ima teacher (:

i didnt notice this till BOMA ! told me bout it. and i was freaking shock. its damn fugging scary actually. anyway, now i smell fries, think ima lil hungry. PFFTS ! but, its damn coool. hah (: check out the videoooo ;D

babyjess ft busta rhymes. lols enjoy ;D

WELL WELL ! funnny ? hahahah ! (:

writtern @12:38 AM

Saturday, June 21, 2008

well, days had been tiring for me, thus im skipping sch on friday which is today. When i woke up, i receive a horrible msg which contains " die ". Imagine yourself having a break away frm the sch, waking up late, recieving a msg that has a word 'die'. It doesnt sounds pleasant, nor does it goes well as your day has just started. Even when your eyes are not fully open blabla. And so, in the text, it says those who didnt go for humanities will die on monday. In fact, i got panick for that 2/3 secs. But i was like, damn it, so many ppl didnt turn up what do you want to do ? And so, i just skip to see another msg. And my day just began.

these are the scores that we had played before marini's bird day. i've won, ;D yell roxy rocks k. (:

i find this pic niceee ;D

my models for toilets. ;D because at yishun park, i thought it was some smelly public toilet. and i saw this damn coool toilet that's machine ! wtfag right. i was so shock and i started wandering IN the toilet. Imagine how NOOB i am -.-! i seriously dont know about it that singapore have such technology. But if that toilet know hows to clean and sort of keep it cleaner and smell nicer, it would be the BEST TECHNOLOGY of toilet. LOL But there'll be increase of unemployment in cleaning industry. =/

and this pic is we went for ugly stuffs and cheese fries ;D ooh, the escaping of motivational lessons thingy one laaa. and having some chips right, i found this cute love shape. hehh ! i took it, and i love my nails tooo. i'll miss ya ;D andand, i find it so unbearable to eat that chip. sooo cute. awww

after that, almost kena lightning strikes and everything. before it rain HEAVILY. we went to slack at the toilet as that is the only possible solution to this. (: sat and chatted, laughed and joked. well, it didnt smell unpleasant because it was washed. ;D

our sch toilet can be the worst shit out of the worst. -.-! you can see blooooood on the floor, or even A POOOL ! -.-! fugg that. you can see shits at the bowl. you can see urine PEED on the floor. toilet paper JAM the WHOLE TOILET BOWL ! which makes everything floood. WTFAG ! you must be YUCK-ing now. pffts. shit that right right ? LOL. well, thats how i survive in sch LIKE THIS ! so once u see the bowl lid was cover, don ever try opening. when u see cubicles door are locked, dont try opening, you'll be shock of ur life. because i tried that. haha =/

well, as you can see, new skin new pics new tagboard. hehh. hope its more likeable. i actually dont intend puting that pic ? its because i was at this buddy hs, he doesnt have my pics. how could he ! he should be a fan of mine. tsktsk. GO DIE K. ;D hehh =/

well, i need a good night slp of course. i woke up by the noises my fmaily made, LIKE ALWAYS ! bahhh. well, my eye-lid gets heavier whenever i type an alphabet. right now, its closeeeeeed. (:

writtern @12:13 AM

Friday, June 20, 2008

im not going to post as my pics doesnt seems to be able to upload in this dumb blogger. darn that ?!?! fugggg. PFFFFTS !
tend to blog cause im slping late, uploaded all my pics and videos to computer alr, AND NOW LIKE THAT.

SHOOOOO !

writtern @12:15 AM

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

so tired, so shag. so worn out, so dead beat. in fact, im actually feeling alil fever because everyday i wake up can feel my cough's coming ): bahhh. no sickk plssss.

today's cold weather. iloveit. my feets and hands are freezing. i love to tuck myself under my blanket. hehh, nice smelling too with wet hair now. waiting for it to dry and then i can fall to slp. And remember you the next day (: and continue loving you the next sec i woke up. Missing you the next milisec, and dreaming of you before i woke up. ;D

goodnight peeeps. tuition's killing me, and im having subconsious mind work, always in sch. -.-! i need more slp, more rest, more water, more love, more care, more money $_$ more time. (:

i find dad fugggggging bastard (: In fact, he always is. NBBBB !

writtern @11:33 PM

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Well, before i sat in front of the computer. I seriously do have a lot things on my mind to post about. But soon after i checked my mails and stuffs, it turn out that my mind was a blank piece of paper, staring at this box and now, im obviously crapping. lols.

School's being tiring, everyday end at 6pm ): and i hafta head to tuition at 7.30 and ends around 9pm. To score well, is to mug hard just like that ? But seriously, its wearing me out that im going so shag whenever i reach home. I can finally feel that its heaven when i step into this hs. hahh. =/ i love ytd badminton's match, played with marini, vs 5B. We were seriously lagging behind, ard 8-14 ? and 15 was the match point. OHMYGAWD ! Yeaps. Thats it ! Me and Marini was like, aiya ! Game only la, nothing. How i know when i started serving, it turn out to be miracle. LOL. classmates were running all over the court and stuffs, and i was drop dead rolling on the floor laughing. Till we got 14-14, here comes the excitement. When we won, i just throw everything and run everywhere, in the hall -.-! marini there beating me, such a butthole. Cheerleading we went to finals you oso like that. That time worse, KICK ME ! bloody foool. watch out i tell you. hahh !

ohkay, thats bout ytd. and i left out smth =/ marini, boma and i sneak out of motivational lessons. i swear it was fugging boring -.-! I almost doze off, and its freaking hawt. Couldnt take it, just leave and went for cheese fries and unhealthy stuffs. It almost rain when we're rushing back. Most happening was, the lightning was seriously horrigeable, terrigeble and VEGETABLEEE ! We seriously almost got strike when it came RIGHT in front of the pavement we were walking. .__. we all squat down and screamed, and ran away. LOL. Reached sch, they still having talks. hahh, luckily we went off. And we slack in the toilet waiting for our bags. Joked, laughed. took pics too. shall post next time la. im super lazt to update. hehh ;D

anyway, i've done my part.
its time to do your part to tell me that you love my grandma story.
NINI wants me to post. ;D

nightsyyy !
awww, i cant look right ! pffts.
my neck's stiff. guess i didnt slp well.
EVEN though i had the queen size bed all for myself,
because mom slpt on the floor ?
i didnt kick her, guess she fell ? LOLL =/

writtern @7:29 PM

Friday, June 13, 2008

i've long wanted to have my own puppy. ;D and raise that cute lil thang, train him and dote on it. hehh, but somehow. i've this lil cute thang in my hs before, named puffy. (: she's a schnauzer, and she's definitely loved by many in this family, except my aunt. i still rmb everything, and how it goes. although she kept ranting that she don like this dawg, and have to keep it away cause she's pregnant with babyjess. For some chinese superstitious, they dont allow dawg to live tgt with a pregnant lady because of some dumb shits la. Even i myself dono whats going on as im in sec 2 ?
when pufy didnt exist in my hs before, i would always always loiter outside, being rebellious and never pick up calls from home. and then when i reached home, will get scolding and naggings by aunt. but this cute lil thang had led me home everytime, by rushing me and in her heart, she's been calling out to me to bring her out for walk and peeeeeeeeeeee. -.-!
nevertheless, i trained her to sit, down, and roll and shake hands and stuffs. terrible training, and she would want me to slp with her at the balcony with her smelly toys. hah ! come to think of it, i do really miss her (:

you must be wondering, where's this lil dawg ? In fact, aunt didnt chase her out, nor did she sell her away, nor did she give it away. She fall into slp forever due to her illness. I was in school when she's sick. Its been long since i had lunch with my friends outside, and so i text my aunt that i'll be eating out. Msg-es replied was, you better come back. you wont feel like eating when you're back. I still insist on going out and have lunch, till some arguement heated up, i left for home. (: when i was at the lift, i could straight away see why are they sitting on the floor, looking down and heard their cries. i seriously didnt realise anything till i walk a few steps forward, and ran all the way back home.

i saw her lying down, she's not moving, at all ? and she's so freaking stiff. it freaks the heaven out of me, and of course. i burst to tears and, i was so ohmygawd why did u took my girl when she's the one who i share my secrets with. and when she accompanied me when im lonely, and she's oso my excuse to go out to have a stroll, and oso i bathed her always. washing her butt, cleaning those shits and her pee everywhere. hahh. those were seriously madness memories (:

and so, this lil cute stuffs seriously makes me think of that cute lil thang. To be precise, God took her away to replace Jesslyn (: though it might not be true, but i believe she'll reincarnate to become a baby (: and here comes babyjess. ;D

she's my another accompanied, i bathed her, i nurture her because i dont train her to sit, down and shake hand or EVEN ROLL -.-! all was, put in alil more love, everything will be fine if you're willing to put in sufficient effort to those problems you're facing :)

even those obstacles had made an illusion at those path im walking. i'll still face it with this cute smile that this cute lil ugly dirty cat gave. ;D hahaa.
if you ever know that im afraid of cat, although they dont smell that bad as dawg, and they are cleaner than dawg. BUT ! when they come near me and pur one me. I SCREAMMMM ! -.-!

afterall,
i do wish for a puppy.
but, a no thanks.
because i don want it to bring me down.
its hard for an owner to accept that your pet had pass away.
and left u alone.
moreover, they dont live longer than you do (:

writtern @10:00 PM

had anyone recently fall out of love ? or something like, having a crush on that person deeply yet you didnt confess. and yet you wanna know what that person's doing and been thinking bout he/she badly ? and another yet, you felt that you're nothing in that person's eyes. therefore, you have no courage to do anything just for that person, and letting them know that you're interested with him/her.

fear not, i've been hearing bout fate and destiny, and if it was meant to be, it will be yours. but first of all, have you wonder, what's chemistry in love all about ? i've did some experiment. ;D belowwwwww

xP

if you think that, the person you fall in love with, either in just chatting on the phone, or purely chatting on msn or even just thru short sms-es. you meant those love. that could possibly happen, even though you guys didnt meet up. but in such a possible outcome, it comes to 1 in a million that's happening.

although i've been thru such things before, but i know, lust and love its just a thin line between them. everyone's thinking bout love and such hence, they fall and had an illusion of them thinking that they had loved them. oh well, that depend on one. it could be interesting, or dull. and it all depends on one (:

Personally, i felt that once there's chemistry between one another it could PROBABLY meant everything, mostly everything though. What i had in mind was, both parties could communicate well, both parties had come to such that they are able to get along well and they have no hidden secrets amg each other. For me, the priority of the relationship might be communication. In fact, i've close one of my eyes and change my priority to become action. (:

so if you're loving anyone, or having a crush on that person,

don hesitate to confess. but if you need consultant,

i'm here ! ;D

loves,

xoxo (:

writtern @3:43 PM

Thursday, June 12, 2008

how coool can my short hair be -.-! ugly thang.... I DIDNT REALISE ROXY'S SO FUGLY WITH SHORT HAIR. OHMYGAWDDDDDD ! -.-! oie, oie, last time to have this pic. booooo ! im not gona cut hair. no way no way. NO MOREEEE ! pffts.

i do love.

and i do get loved.

its just another option for you to choose,

how you want your life to be,

how you want your pavement to be like.

i bet all of us can find one way.

when there's a will,

there's a way (:

loves;

xoxo.

writtern @11:32 PM

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

how could a starbuck coffee tempt me so much ? with just that hot chocolate, with white cream and some chocolate syrup on it.

-.-! sheeesh. must be out of my mind, but aint that pic tempting too ? lols. bahhh ! its been long since i had it on rainy days though its raining these few days ! but always rain when starbucks are

CLOSE !

pffts ):

i think i fall again.

again, yes, again ._.

writtern @11:42 PM

Sunday, June 08, 2008

CHAPTER 2

The most frequently expressed complaint women have about men is that men don't listen. And the most frequently expressed complaint men have about women is that women are always trying to change them. ( am i trying to change him? idts.)

here's some test, take it and be sure you answer the Qn fairly and honestly. Both Martians and Venusians should take it; however only YOU need to know how you score.
(Martians usually hate test so don't expect him to share his answers)

Take this test to find out if you are a good listener. Score one point for each phrase ( or similiar message) you say occassionally, two points for each phrase you say fairly often, and three points for habitual use.

ARE YOU REALLY LISTENING TO HER ?
1. "You shouldnt worry so much"
2. "But that is not what i said"
3."Its not such a big deal"
4."OK, Im sorry. Now we can just forget bout it"
5."Why dont you just do it?"
6."But we do talk"
7."You shouldnt feel hurt"
8."So what are you trying to say?"
9."But you shouldnt feel that way"
10."How can you say that? Last week i spent the whole day with you. We had a great time."
11."Thats not what i meant."
12."Alright, i'll clean up the backyard. Does that make you happy?"
13. "I got it. This is what you should do."
14."Look, there's nth we can do abt it"
15."If you are going to complain, then dont do it"
16."Why do you let ppl treat u that way?"
17."If you're not happy, then we should just get a divorce."
18."Alright, then u can do it from now on"
19."I'll handle it."
20."Of course i care abt you. Thats ridiculous."
21."Would you get to the point?"
22."All we have to do is ..."
23."Thats not all what happened."

When a man loves a woman, he mistakenly thinks he's helping her by becoming Mr. Fix-It and offering solutions to her problems. What she really wants is his empathy and understanding.

Test Results ;
0-10pts.
Congrats ! you're a wonderful listener. You're supportive, trusting (:

10-21pts.
Sometimes you dont listen, but for the most part, you are an attentive partner.

over 21pts.
You are not a good listener. For the next week, practice listening whenever a woman speaks. Practice biting your tongue whenever you get the urge to offer a solution or change how she is feeling. You'll be surprised when u experience how much she appreciates you.

for Venusians, i'll post another day bah (:
sorrryyy ! ;D

anyone black sexy dress who have the same size could lend me ?
i need it so badly ? ):

writtern @4:19 PM

its early morning, i woke up 5 am, and mom's using the comp. and i played dead on the bed, till she snores. and here i am after that. ;D you must be thinking im mad ? i slpt at 3am, and woke up at 5. butthole. i only slpt 2 hrs and i have 3 hrs of tuition. pfffffts. anyway, i've read up some books bout relatinships. i find it kinda true, and so i intend to share, every chapter if possible ? (: hope you guys dont get bored. i cant pass the book ard to friends its because it's my uncle's. and there's smth love notes at the front page, hahh. inconvenient to passs. ;D i'll just summarise all of each chapter, hopefully you guys understand cause im known to be very powderful for my england. =/

but, im sure that. this is gona be helpful for those who kept falling out of love, or even, thinking that no one understand he/she's feelings. but to a certain extent, i bet not all the chapters doesnt lie with you. As the saying goes, it takes 2 hands to clap, so why not read it ? or even share it when you felt that its true (: it'll help many love, and let them encounter true love. one day, it'll happen to me, and all of you. :)

CHAPTER 1

when men and women are able to repect their differences, then love has a chance to grow.
in this whole story, Men are called the Martians its because they are from Mars, and Women will be called Venusians as they are from Venus. (:
When a man get married, he hopes his wife stays the same, while she hopes that after marriage, he will change. It is our differences that attract us to each other. Differences make our partners interesting and attractive. Yet it is also our differences that create problems. And the biggest problem is our tendacy to EXPECT our partners to think and feel the way we do.

7 big differences between Martians and Venusians.
Martians
1. Biggest mistake : Martians interrupt by offering solutions.
2. Men speak Martian
3. Martians need to learn the importance of listening
4. On Mars, big expressions of love make a big difference.
5. To feel better, men go into their caves.
6. On Mars, he assumes that if she is not asking for more then he must be giving enough.
7. Martians particularly enjoy being appreciated, accepted and trusted.

Venusians
1. Biggest mistake : Venusians offer unsolicited advice. unsolicited-helpful.
2. Women speak Venusian
3. Venusians need to learn how to stop trying to change a man
4. On Venus, little expressions of love make a big difference.
5. To feel better, women discuss it.
6. On venus, it's not romantic if she has to ask for expressions of love and affection.
7. Venusians particularly enjoyed being respected, understood, and cherished.

Life on Mars
- a man's sense of self is defined through his ability to achieve results.

Which means Martians value power, competency, efficiency and achievement. They are more interested in "objects" and "things" rather than ppl and feelings. While women fantasize abt romance, men fantasize bout powerful cars, technology etc.. A woman, however, may feel excluded because man focuses on his work or on solving problems, she feels he doesnt care bout her feelings..

Life on Venus
- a woman's sense of self is defined thru her feelings and the quality of her r/s.

Venusians value love, communication, beauty and relationships. They spend a lot of time supporting, helping and nurturing one another.Talking and relating to one another is a source of tremendous fulfillment. ( i bet guys doesnt know bout that, lol) Communication is the PRIMARY importance. Venusians are very intuitive. ( the feeling that makes you believe without any reason) A man, however may feel offended because a woman offers advice, he doesnt feel she trusts his ability to do it himself.

When we remember
Men are from Mars,
Women are from Venus.
then everything can be explained (:

by understanding the hidden differences of the opposite sex we can mroe successfully give and receive the love that is in our hearts. By validating and accepting our differences, creative solutions can be discovered whereby we can succeed in getting what we want (: More importantly, we can learn how to best love and support the ppl we care abt (:

to end off, i would love to say,
Love is magical and it can last,
if we rmb our differences (:

loves;
xoxo

writtern @8:03 AM

Friday, June 06, 2008

anyone teach me how to vent anger. UGHHHHH !
sheeesh.

armani exchange logo ;D

Louis Vuitton ;D

someone plan sentosa again ? i want it sunny, tanning under the hawt sun with that sea breeze. yea, i just need another trip to sentosa again to make me look tanner. mayb even hotter ? lols. ;D

anyone's ready for supper tonight ?!?!?!
HELLOOOOOOOOOOO !

writtern @2:16 PM

Thursday, June 05, 2008

i've once told you; there's always sunshin after rain. reality are always better than pictures. hopefully, there's rainbow too :) i've said we'll walk thru the rainbow tgt. and enjoy every weather that's been thru our life. :)

i was trying out some outfit and like it so took some pic. and so i went to bath, then it turn out the next pic (:

darn her D;

what i wore for today's interview. that lady just praised me (: i pray that i could get it ? lols ! and thanks ! you've saved my day today :) much appreciated for buy and taking such stuffs. haha ! i don wanna return you =/

tata!

writtern @11:21 PM

definitely, it will be so sweet for a friend to travel from home to kovan with me (: that's nothing better than any of my dearest shawn. ;D and guess what ? i cant believe im meeting him twice a day. anyway, he look damn hawttttt today. everything he wears today cost him more than 400 bucks. buttttttttholeeeeee. now he sells his IPHONE, and intend to buy camera and W910i. he is so spend-thrift. -.- mayb i need to open some lecturer for those who just kept spending money once they have it. .__.

are you ready ready ready ready ready.

one hundred de per cent ta.

i've forgotten why i did that & look super retard -.-!!!

Louis Vuitton. ;DD

darn you !

realise all 3 different guys ? lols ! one by one wanna take turn with the 2 ladies can. sheeesh, and you realise there's one in black, one in white ? i think the contrast colour damn nice. =P

im so tired now ): i've been suffering from insomnia, waking up in the middle of the night too. scare of nightmares. haha ! i feel like ima small kid now. hehh. i need rush for interview le. my trip is more than one hr. )): i hate it. so lonely. UGHH ! all for the sake of JOBS ! sheesh

writtern @12:15 PM

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

damn ! im so in dilemma. i hope i wont get absent minded anymore ! because there's like so many things for me to do now ): schs starting ! my job''s gona start too ! and then shoots, and then get another model to join in. and then have the new face for new paper audition. i've registered my name, and now im backing out. damn it ! -.- now losing confidence due to financial. cause on the other hand im getting a job at the same day. but it'll be 4 days ;D its 11am-9pm though ): im so gona get hurt my legs by my heels, badly. good money too, why not ?! hmmm.

went tanning today. and im glad that i got what i wanted ;D i look super duper uber cool roxy now. for sure ! ;D and below that pic, is my all times favourite. i cant believe i can look cool in cap too ;D and that's my wallpaper now la ? mayb my next fashion wear would be hip hop now. no more pretty pretty xanne with demure and naive thinking. hahah ! who knows ? (:

i was really very tired. i was just there lying at the mats and fall aslp .__. i can feel the heat, and for goodness sake, my lens kept playing hide and seek with me with that small lil eyes of mine ! sheesh. i thought ima go blind and unable to see my loved. ): i was pulled up by the water, grabbed and stuffs and being carried ): to the "sandy couch" that shawn, zh and boma had made. -.- they just started throwing sands and i got so irritated. BAHHH ! and i look damn cool uh ! i thought so too ;D

"what that jiejie doing ? -.-??"
"cant you see im being bullied ?! HELPPPP ! *drown*
"*RUN AWAYYY*

)):

and here goes our united family ;D
new friend ! leon, li onn if im not wrong. dono la. make it easy, LIONNN ! who roars, real loud.
zh, leon, roxy, shawn and boma (:

we were definitely mad today (: shawn's having his portfolio tmr, and he tried my foundation and turn out wonders ! so ima wake up at 6.30am tmr, JUST to make up for him ? and to bring sunglasses, hairspray and stuffs. damn it. and my interview tmr is at kovan laaaaa ! ): who's gona travel with me, with that so farfar away place. after that, tuition ?!?! ughh !

i love my skin now, i look hawtttt. ;D wanna see the contrast ? its damn cool =P

i wanna watch my kungfu panda to whom he promised before. sheeesh ! my zoo trip, my 1st zouk clubbing with. i think that one can be erased off la. its gona be soooooo long. hmmm. i wonder, and ponder, what am i up to now ? sigh.

you see those pics, you heard those laugh, you saw how i smile. who do you think i am now ? can't you see im trying to be busy now ? lols. damn it, i am k. ;D

writtern @11:43 PM

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

there;s one thing common bout me and babyjess. and there's one thing common bout babyjess and "you". she took pic, with her one eyebrow up, and smile sweetly in front of the cam. hehh (: and the thing common bout me and her is, we look damn alike. :))

heh. (:

i didnt realise i like pooh actually =/ i saw a POOL of POOH there ! and i quickly went there and hug all of them. its like, i was in a pool of bears and they were all hugged by me. they must be honoured. hmmm.

before everything could really falls upon me. i was elated bout this stuff. Za. -.- foundation laaaaaa. nth much. but i was kinda, high laa .__. its nice man ! it seems like a metal piece with no mirror. and its so clear :D mom gave me that (: in fact, i got so in love and it suits my skin colour perfectly. ((:

okay. to end off with this post. have you ever heard of baby snake before ? damn, i can tell you is damn scary. but at the same time, you'll feel sorry and felt broken heart for them. as they went through so much. nvm. mayb you should see it yourself. but make sure u don eat while watching the video (:

http://www.youurs-truly.blogspot.com/

so don complain too much bout your skin, girls (:

writtern @2:21 PM